Delusions of Parasitosis
I suffered from this for well over twenty years and didn't even realise.
I only gradually came to the realisation that I do not have parasites living on my skin in the last 18 months, or so.
It started in '86 or '87 when two work colleagues told me that they thought that I may have head-lice. I didn't have head-lice, I have never had head-lice, they were mistaken.
Unfortunately the psychological damage was done. Resulting in me being utterly convinced, that, no matter what various doctor's & specialists told me to the contrary, I had head-lice.
This caused me many problems over the years, chief amongst them, relatioships, or my refusal to take-up any of the offers of either; sex, dates or similar ( except on rare occasions where I was drunk with an unfamiliar woman ), for fear of passing-on my "infestation".
Needless to say that I found this to be super-depressing & the fact that I kept it all to myself from the age of 16/17 to 40, has really damaged me further, I feel.
It has been a horrible ordeal. Just venting, sorry.
Am I alone in suffering from this kind of delusion?
Not delusions of parasitosis but another somatic type of delusion. I thought I had tumors somewhere....and I told it to friends and sometimes even random people...I medicated myself with cancer medication. One apparently had side effects and I began throwing up and feeling dizzy (e.g. when attending uni). I went to doctors but they couldn't find anything. I was adamant that they just hadn't looked right. One day, I realized that this wasn't real when someone I really appreciate, pointed out to me that I might be a hypochondriac.
I also had another kind of delusion which I won't recount here. Needlessly to say, It could've damaged my career (it probably did damage somewhere but maybe not, better not think about it in this way ever until I see and hear direct, clear evidence).
(Here's a DD thread:
link)
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Knowing / that I could walk seventeen miles through a ravine / in the heart of Toronto,
and never / directly see the city/ is of some comfort
Actually that is the same problem that I had ( the scalp problem ) & it caused me all these years of torment.
It's so frustrating.
I also had another kind of delusion which I won't recount here. Needlessly to say, It could've damaged my career (it probably did damage somewhere but maybe not, better not think about it in this way ever until I see and hear direct, clear evidence).
(Here's a DD thread:
link)
Crikey, where did you get the cancer medication from?
Someone in my family had it prescribed for something after an operation and didn't need it anymore. It was stored away somewhere and I found it so I actually did nothing illegal to get it.
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Knowing / that I could walk seventeen miles through a ravine / in the heart of Toronto,
and never / directly see the city/ is of some comfort
Thanks for your concern.
I don't know, maybe it did, maybe not. I don't want to think about these things ever again. That's why I rather not speculate about whether the medications did something to me or if it was something else....Not healthy for my mind. At least, health-wise I feel much better now than ever.
I hope you feel better now, too.
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Knowing / that I could walk seventeen miles through a ravine / in the heart of Toronto,
and never / directly see the city/ is of some comfort
50% of the world population has toxoplasmosis gondi, the cat pooh parasite
Many babies from developed nations are born with disorders because of the prevalence of cats
The French have a very high incidence of Toxo, around 80% due to their consumption of undercooked meats
In countries like Africa and Indonesia, parasite related health problems are extremely common.
People used to regularly dose their children, their pets and themselves every year. This practise has been largely forgotten.
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