I am questioning that very carefully. I guess I just got all caught up in the wonder of someone wanting to be my friend, and therefore put up with a lot of things that, if I'd the ability, I could have seen were warning signals. I once had a counselor say that I discard people a little too quickly, but if I am not getting anything worthwhile out of the relationship, why the hell should I hang around for more abuse? I have told her on several occasions that her comments about negative programming cause me to feel that I shouldn't speak to her at all. But she never gets it. Because the next time I am casually commenting on something, she will whip out this irritating comment. She even tried to tell me about some audio tape to listen to in order to "cure" my autism. I assured her that I had no desire to cure it, that I embraced it as an intrinsic part of myself. She didn't get it. I don't even know how to answer her last e-mail, because it came across as so harsh. I would call her, but I have an extremely sore throat, and I couldn't bear her right now.
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Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.
-- Dr. Dale Turner