Sorry, I know I post a lot about my stories here... but you guys are the only ones that I know will understand. D: I have asked a couple of my NT friends but they aren't online right now. So I need some advice. I need to know if this explains enough about routine and changes:
My mind went into overdrive mode, all in a fight to obey routine or suffer the forced changes. Mom didn't seem to understand how my brain worked when it came to routine, which was something I hated.
I sat there at the kitchen table with tears in my eyes. I couldn't break routine because in my mind, everything had to be within order. I had two routines; one was my school routine and the other my home routine.
After a long and hard day at school, I wanted nothing more than to relax at home without dealing with more school stuff. It didn't matter if homework was well *home*work because it was work being assigned from school to be done at home.
This didn't click in my brain and made it hard to understand. Simple changes became distressing and panic-worthy for me. Once I was at home, school was over for me, so doing homework only increased my anxiety at home.
Thing is, I'm not exactly as strict to routine as my character is. That's why I need some advice on how to explain this to an NT reader who may not understand autism as much as someone who does. D:
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Diagnosed with an autistic disorder (Not AS but mild to moderate classic Autism), ADHD, Learning Disability, intellectual disability and severe anxiety (part of the autism); iPad user; written expressionist; emotionally-sensitive
12 Jan 2013, 2:01 pm
