Ashamed of my body... gender dysphoria?

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I'm in a huge phase of depression right now... as I've posted in a couple of threads, can't STAND my feminine-looking body and its feminine functions, and hate the word "woman" with a vengeance (I don't mind "girl", but the word "woman" can go die in a fire) and just have to put up with it in thread titles. Yet I don't feel like a guy at all... some days I want nothing more than to be a person with no gender or biological sex, and am repulsed by the idea of sexual contact with anyone... yet other days I'm just a normal girl who has just as many dirty thoughts as the next person. But no matter how I'm feeling, I always want a less curvy, flat-chested, more childish-looking figure... don't know what's going on.

From the experience of my travels, I wouls say you might be gender fluid. Could be worth checking out.

Do you know what it is about sexual contact you find disturbing? I'm no expert of course, but it sounds less like a gender issue than coming to terms with being a sexual person. Somewhere those urges/processes became linked with being deviant or disgusting. I hope you find some peace with this.

There was a period in my life where I just wanted to eliminate all gender identification and become truly androgynous (though part of the problem was that I am male with an effeminate body, so I get confused for being a girl a lot). People like that are generally known as Neutrois. You can look into it. I am not as paranoid now in that I am okay with what I look like. It took time, a few attempts at fashion statements, etc. Have you tried things like compression shirts to flatten you chest?