My teacher's are out to get me.

Post Reply New Topic

I'm new to this website but my old therapist recommended it for me. This is my first time on here. I apologize in advance if I'm breaking any forum rules. This place seems a lot happier than the social anxiety forums I've been on, which were just very depressing to read, much like myself...

Psychiatric past: Depressed (who isn't?), social anxiety disorder, suicide attempts and hospitalization, rape, Asperger's. Currently I don't see any mental health professional (after my last therapist, I don't think I will) and I'm not on any medications. I don't ever want to be again.

I go an accredited state college, but I take all of my classes online because I suffer from severe social anxiety. I don't have any friends in real life and my parents don't believe in social anxiety or autism (they just call me ret*d instead).

Last year I was a freshman and I signed up for my school's disability. This was helpful because I was at a large university taking in-class classes (which I ended up skipping nearly half of them due to anxiety). I didn't make any friends and no one ever worked with me.

With online classes, there are weekly assignments and we have to make weekly posts in regards to whatever the discussion subject is. I'm taking four classes and my major is computer science. The other classes I have to take in order to obtain my degree include 1 writing class and 1 business class. Those are the two classes I'm having problems with, and I'm just sitting here crying and feeling like a loser.

My writing teacher left me feedback in the beginning of the term and marked me down 10-20% for being "too honest." You see, I don't understand that. If you're offended by what I say, you need to stop being so oversensitive and man up. I feel like a hypocrite because I'm crying at the words my teacher's wrote me in an Email. I'm regularly a straight A student, but now I just feel like I won't be able to succeed in life because I have no friends, no social skills, and my teachers all think I'm "too honest" or rude/blunt/comes off as an a**hole.

My other teacher deleted a post of mine and she said many students Emailed her complaining about my post. My teacher also said my post was irrelevant, but I wrote according to the topic and I feel it was very relevant. I answered all of her questions. She started her Email off with "This is the second time you've offended people." How is that my problem they were offended by what I said? What I wrote was not offensive to me. It was not racist, bigoted, homophobic -- any of that!

Yes, you can ask yourself "What will other people think?" HOW SHOULD I KNOW WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WILL THINK! That's my problem, I DON'T KNOW! I think differently than most "normal" NT people. I'm direct and honest, other people like to lie and sugarcoat things - I'd rather get straight to the point.

Is it wrong to be upset about this? I don't believe my post was irrelevant to the discussion board at all. I don't want to post the subject matter on here because I'm scared my teachers will find out I'm on here. I try to remain anonymous when online, I don't want anyone to know who I am.

I'm just really beginning to think my life is worthless and not going anywhere. I don't want anyone to convince me otherwise because it doesn't matter to me. I've been trying to improve for the last few years but every result ends up in failure, I just want to go away.

I often offend other people unintentionally, but I usually don't let it bother me much. I do hate being corrected on it, though, since I often don't know why what I said was supposedly offensive. Sometimes I just think the other person was just oversensitive.

Sounds to me like you have your head screwed on straight, and NT's don't like it that way. Conformity may be your greatest weakness. Be more like them. So what if it is a lie. Thats the way the majority of the people want you to be. It's sociology. Buisness is a big fat lie, and you have to be that way just to do it. If your degree is in buisness, you need to sugar cote things. You need to be comfortable in uncomfortable situations. You need to apologize when you are right, and make things better... for them. Its a really super gay way for the world to be, but that is the way your teacher, and the students are. A big fat gay misrepresentation of the truth. That is why most autistic people are in sciences. Because it makes sence. Soo... stop making sence!! !

Can we read the posts you made?

It's hard to judge who was right and who was wrong w/o knowing that.