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Well first off my name is Byron i am 43yo, from Fort Wayne Indiana. I have always suspected there just was not something quite right with who I am. 43 years it took me to come to any conclusion even remotely who i might be. But the more i read and learn about aspergers the more I come to see I might have been suffering through for what amounts to forever. From my earliest i can recall was 2nd grade and being told i could not stay in my seat i could not focus on anything. To having weird emotional attachment with inanimate objects and worrying about how the felt, like worrying about tearing paper and hurting it in the tearing of it. Weird stuff like that sticks out in my mind. As i got older i suffered from what i would call explosive rage where i would lose total control, i couldn't express how i felt so it would just explode in this rage. The thing i remember is that after i would come down from this rage i would always have headaches for a couple days afterwards, not that it has anything to do with aspies. I also remember my inability to fit into a conversation, from not knowing when to join in to once i did get in to taking over the conversation. Also there is my inability to for any relationships with anybody females, I prefer to be alone. But on the other hand i do crave interpersonal relationships but dam if i know how to go about creating them. Even in the typing of this i would rater be doing something else, i had to just laugh because in a period of 30 seconds i thought of 5 different subjects. I swear to god it is like this huge whirlwind of thoughts that go through my mind.

Weird thing is a was in the ARMY and i dont think it bothered me then, or maybe it was just so rigid in what i had to do i was able to deal with it. Back to the anger issue just before Thanksgiving i blew at both my mom and my older sister, over something that was in fact stupid and i knew it was not true but i still blew up. Is anger an major issue with Aspies?


Christ i am psycho lol this is confusing the hell out of me.

I just want to fit in someplace but I dont!!

Well, not surprisingly, I'm at a loss for words.

So here goes....Welcome!

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Welcome

I haven't heard many stories myself about others dealing with rage, but there are a few people I've spoken to who feel the same. I imagine it stems from the confusion of it all. Maybe it would help to post a new topic in the appropriate forum entitled 'dealing with rage', or something along those lines. I find people can be much more responsive outside of the introductory forum posts.

Greetings and welcome to Wrong Planet!

Hi ya and Welcome!

Welcome. I'm 38 and, just a few weeks ago, I began to get MY answers...and this place sure helped, so i would think that the friendly people here could help you, too (in some way). I think it's good to just keep expressing yourself in writing - trying to communicate with others b/c your writing skills seem good. This is "WrongPlanet", so people here are pretty understanding, or, at least, sympathetic & sincere. The difficulty with your anger could be chemical-related, so try not to blame your good soul. The fact that you're here is a major step. It's, after all, good to talk to people who want to help.