No energy for school

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Hello.
I've been back to school for the past 2 years after a break of 1 year where I did some work but mostly focused on just getting through each day and remembering to eat food and clean my apartment. I am currently on the last half of my second year and I could finish the courses necessary to 'graduate' from this part of school which is obligatory if you are to continue to study or get a job. I began studying again because during my 1 year pause I read about a lot of educations I'd like to take but they all required for me to graduate first, so I thought 'Ok, let's do this' and went back to school. My mum and grandparents were really happy about it and it's the first thing they'll ask me about when I see them.

Although it's been a real struggle earlier I've recently began to feel that it's almost impossible for me to go to school this last semester. I'll get up in the morning, get dressed, have breakfast, put my shoes and jacket on, pack lunch etc and then I'll stand fully ready at the front door and feel as if all my air would escape me if I would open that door. Some days my whole body will feel as wet clay when I wake up that I can't even bring myself to stand even though I'm not tired, (I sleep for about 8-9h each schoolnight). So lately I've been staying home more often and I keep thinking that if I just manage this last half year of school I'm never going to go back again. I already have a place where I get to work occasionally (even without having graduated) and I really like it there. Plus I don't really feel like I'm learning anything in school, I learn things better on my own. All school seems to do is steal the little energy I actually have and I hate it.

I'm sorry for bothering you with my issues, usually I'd talk with my mum but I don't wanna feel like I'm disappointing her and when I've tried to bring it up with her she'll say "It's just half a year left". But half a year is still half a year, and I have no idea how I'm supposed to get through it... Have anyone here experienced something similair and do anyone have some tips?
Sincere thanks for any reply.

For me it went better, when I focused on the tests. So I missed regular school quiet often, but used that time for learning instead, so that I managed to pass the tests.

Is there maybe a possibility that you can quit school for now and then, so that you can relax and focus your ressources on the tests?

That's one thing, the school I'm at doesn't have any tests. What you have to do is pretty much just sit through the lessons and listen and that will give you your grade. But thank you, I might look into some long distance courses or so where they do have tests...

I.. think I actually know how you feel, pal.
In my case, I feel so distant from this world and my class and the lessons. I'm constantly distracted because of my fatigue and boredom and I don't feel like doing any homework and assignments given to me. It might just be because of all the meds I'm taking but I've been taking them for a pretty long time so I think it's just a trick my mind is playing. Whatever it is my mind has created, it does a damn good job tiring me. I just listen and wait. To be home once again. It's an intriguing sensation I must say.
But to overcome it you just need determination and a pair of hands, which I actually happen to have! A pair of hands to lift you and wake you up, and determination to keep you like that. Think about all the possibilities if you keep going on. What will happen from now on. Just try to take notes or participate in class or anything you think might help you catch up with the lesson. You'll realise that you're actually good at learning and that you can actually do it. You just need to try harder, pal!