feeling like a failure to.... well everyone really

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I feel like a total life failure..... especially to my family

I'm here 21 years old, I don't have a job(on SSI) don't go to school, don't have any goals in life, no ambitions.

been in and out of the hospital for the last year and a half, am consistently suicidal(my mum thinks I am for the attention.... I don't think she understands...)

can't seem to manage to do daily living things properly without reminders(i.e showers, teeth, ect)

can't go outside without getting ridiculously stressed

I'm even failing at training my service dog, which is stupid because I've trained 2 previous and those went just fine

I don't want to live.... I'm so tired of everything...

I'm very very sorry you're feeling this way. The fact that you even took the time to write some of your feelings down and share them speaks volume. I know this sounds cliche but things really do get better! I feel like you do more than I care to admit, but then I have days when I feel really happy and content. Try to meditate on your good days if you can. Even better, try to replicate them. Whatever it was that you were doing that brought you so much joy at the time. Good luck!

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