Joe90 wrote:
LookingLost wrote:
Yes. I'd feel guilty saying that though as I do have friends and they are good people. I think I know what you mean though.
Yes, that is what I meant. I do have some nice people around, but I feel I can't really rely on them too much, if you know what I mean. I have one friend who would be more willing to do more things if she had the money (she's in a bad situation with money at the moment), but she's almost 40 years older than me, and sometimes I feel like I want a friend a bit younger than 60 years old. I stay in touch with her because she does at least bother to contact me and want to see me, but I still would rather some friends more younger too.
I would love to have few friends who phone up and go ''what you doing next Saturday? Fancy coming down to the coast with us?'' And when I go with them I wouldn't feel like I'm just shyly tagging along behind feeling a bit ostracized. I'd like a small group of friends (no bigger than about 2 or 3 others) who I feel included with and can be myself and laugh about things and feel comfortable. The trouble is I can't seem to find any descent friends like that.
Thought that might be what you meant, sorry. Then yeah, I can definitely relate. I would also like to have friends who would look me up to just hang out and do nothing special/specific. I have three friends who seem to meet up with each other more than they meet up with me, so I always seem to be missing stuff and losing track of what is going on.
(Although I do currently have friends, and more of them than I've ever had before in my life, so am very thankful for that)
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