I am writing this now because I am at my wit's end and seemingly out of options. I am twenty year old college student with an autism spectrum disorder and a history of depression. I have attempted suicide twice, and almost succeeded the last time, during my senior year of high school. While I was in the emergency room, my parents had me sign a document granting them power of attorney, and a lawyer was present. The thing was, I was incapacitated at the time, and couldn't make out what I was signing. But wait, the plot thickens. You see, for as long as I can remember, I have been extremely verbally and psychologically abused by my parents. My mother is possibly mentally unstable and drinks a lot. It doesn't help that she recently lost her job, which paid pretty well. My father is, for all intents and purposes, a sociopath, and he once stuck an empty gun in my face, pulling the trigger. My grandmother is senile, and insists that my parents love me; "They've just got problems," she says. I beg to differ. For the past twenty years, I have suffered. Now, as I've said before, my parents have power of attorney over me, and they are the payees on my Social Security Disability account. I barely get to see the money, or where it goes, outside of paying tuition. Whenever they buy something, like a movie or video game, I have to pay them back.
It's confusing, and it's getting to me. Like I said, I'm at my wit's end.
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Yes, I'm still alive.