Coda wrote:
League_Girl wrote:
I remember I got worse too and so did my anxiety and I think my parents thought I was faking it too because they would get mad at me whenever I got upset or had anxiety. I felt abandoned. I figured when I was older it was because they were trying to get their house done being built and we had all just moved in and still were transitioning and still had the other house to clean out to rent out so they couldn't handle me right now. But no my mom said it was because I was acting like a two year old. She also said I was trying to be Asperger's and then she said it was my school therapist doing it. But I remember all those years were hard and 16 was the worst. I also had moderate depression too that year according to my therapist based on a test he gave me. I tie it all down to hormones, teens, depression, and anxiety was why I got worse and that can be hard for someone with ASD.
But I got better again. It was actually relieving to read online about autistic people getting worse because it meant I wasn't crazy or faking it.
Wow, that's bloody awful. My mum sometimes finds it hard to deal with me but she's never accused me of 'trying to be autistic' or something stupid like that, she kind of just gets on with it because she understands how difficult things are for me. I've had depression in the past too, it was just after I got kicked out of my 2nd high school (just after I received a diagnosis) and missed Year 8, a whole year of schooling. For the whole year I was alone and constantly in my bedroom. I also began taking medication for my ADHD but the problem was that they gave me too much of a high prescription and it caused my depression to worsen and... I won't get into the details as that year is still quite personal but let's just say it was a very dark time in my life that I never wish to repeat.
I can't understand how your parents thought/(still think?) you were faking... I doubt someone would be pathetic enough to fake autism/aspergers. Does your mum still think you're 'faking' or what? I really can't understand the concept of your own mother not believing you.
Yes she does. I admit I did use it as an excuse then too because I didn't even try. I thought just because I had it, everyone had to put up with it and I don't have to do anything. I don't have to take any responsibility. That was the impression I got. Then I tried to have ODD (thinking it was a choice kids do) so I could get my way and have an easier life and bye bye anxiety and things are calm and relaxed for me because a boy I knew had it too and he always got his way by being mean to his mother and violent and she always gave him his way because she feared him. But for me it backfired because Mom told me she would send me to a hospital if I hit her again. The kid had been in and out of hospitals too and acted better when his dad was around because he didn't let him get away with that s**t.
I realize now ODD isn't a choice just like being a psychopath isn't a choice either or being a narcissist. It's not like Frankie decided one day "I hate how I have all this anxiety and not getting my way so I think I am going to be an as*hole. I will start screaming at my mother and hitting her and breaking stuff to get her to listen to me and do what I want." Sometimes I feel sorry for these kids because they are like a victim too themselves, victim of their illness. But the kid took pride in it. I just found a shortcut and tried to use it and my family wouldn't allow it so they didn't let me and my mom put a stop to it.
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Son: Diagnosed w/anxiety and ADHD. Also academic delayed.
Daughter: NT, no diagnoses.
20 Jul 2014, 4:20 pm
