screen_name wrote:
As a child, I was tested (a lot) and was said to have an eidetic memory. I no longer have this ability, but I always felt the things I saw were related to that. Both of those "abilities" faded with age. I could conjure up anything I wanted and literally see it and interact with it. (Consequently, I could also accurately draw anything I had ever seen with a high level of accuracy). I cannot do this anyone.
Now, I am not choosing to see things, but I have noticed that I can affect them...if that makes sense.
That makes sense.
Maybe what is happening, is you never really lost those abilities, but suppressed them or lost conscious control over them. And now they are reemerging spontaneously.
Lots of people take hallucinogenic drugs to be able to have those abilities. But when people take drugs, they set aside time and space to do it safely and maybe have someone to watch them.
Maybe you could set aside some time to explore this deliberately, rather than having it take over spontaneously.