I absolutely understand this feeling. I feel at home here, but among the other autistics I've met in real life in my social skills groups and such, I still feel isolated and different because they all seem far higher functioning than me. None of them have ever had meltdowns in group like I have, their grasp of social skills seems to be globally higher than mine, and in five years, I've only ever met one other person who stims visibly as I do. The only person I've met whose social skills are worse than mine, I don't like, because he's loud, bossy, interrupts everyone all the time, and takes it as a personal offence when the group doesn't want to fixate on his topic.
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"Survival is insufficient" - Seven of Nine
Diagnosed with ASD level 1 on the 10th of April, 2014
Rediagnosed with ASD level 2 on the 4th of May, 2019
Thanks to Olympiadis for my fantastic avatar!