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autismthinker21
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21 Jun 2015, 12:47 am

My family is a biggest joke. I am tired of being a f*****g part of it. The only person that I can relate to is my mom. Only one that put me where I am in life. My dad is nothing but a piece of s**t. I rather send a pipe and bust his head open. I have that intention. I really can't stand my dad. He did So much s**t to me It's not even funny. I came from him and it blows that I have to be a part of something I don't like. I can relate to other family members.


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21 Jun 2015, 3:03 am

Keep in mind the consequences of what would happen if you "bust a pipe" over someone, if you do honestly have such intentions you really should seek professional help before you ruin your life/someone else's..


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21 Jun 2015, 10:01 pm

I can relate and I have always believed it is ridiculous for society to expect you to like your family.

Not everyone should love the family they have been born into. Yes love for family is unconditional but hate is certainly conditional. You might love your family but that doesn't mean you do not have a right to dislike/hate them.

Me I am 16 and I love and care about my mother as well, she means the world to me.

Rest of family however I have more mixed feelings about. My dad was an alcoholic and abusive to my mother. Majority of people in my family are drug users, high school dropouts, unemployed, violent criminals, or just losers in some way. Aunt was abusive to her children and still is, grandmother and uncles are alcoholics, unemployed, etc. They are disabled but it's not excuse they both use to have part-time jobs before getting sucked into the alcoholic life. Etc. etc. etc.

I feel like I've always been destined for better things obviously. That I need to even escape my family. I was planning to sever all ties with around 90% of my family once I move out of the house at around 18.

Seriously, there are so many cousins the same age as me I grew up with that use to be innocent like me but began getting sucked into this infecting lifestyle. I need to get out before I become a low-life.

All I can say is, keep the hate inside and do not assault your Dad. But trust me, I've definitely had those thoughts to, oh you bet I have. I don't see anything wrong with it, your imagination is your imagination. You just need to keep that self-control.



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21 Jun 2015, 10:34 pm

Don't be so harsh on them as they may not come close to understanding.

My parents believe they understand, but I doubt they will understand. Truthfully, they never had psychiatrists and doctors breathing down every aspect of you life or fights over gender identity issues.

It takes patience and love to solve it. Hate is not the path to acceptance.


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21 Jun 2015, 11:35 pm

Now that I think about it, I don't have a father. It feels weird to me that I had to go with my life being like a person, that has to believe I came into a weird world. Honestly I don't know What to say.


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22 Jun 2015, 4:51 am

autismthinker21 wrote:
Now that I think about it, I don't have a father. It feels weird to me that I had to go with my life being like a person, that has to believe I came into a weird world. Honestly I don't know What to say.


What do you mean, sir? You just never felt like you could have had the normal life?



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22 Jun 2015, 7:02 am

autismthinker21 wrote:
Now that I think about it, I don't have a father. It feels weird to me that I had to go with my life being like a person, that has to believe I came into a weird world. Honestly I don't know What to say.

That's perfectly okay to say, it really is.. if someone has been abusive or a malefactor to your life, even if you're blood related, you don't have to consider them to be a part of your life.


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22 Jun 2015, 8:26 am

hey buddy how old are you, it seems like your dad is trying to you understand some fault of your life , mom's love exists to appear but dad's love except that point, I don't know you and your family situation but this is a conman true.



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22 Jun 2015, 10:37 am

autismthinker21 wrote:
Now that I think about it, I don't have a father.


I was in a similar situation, so I can empathize.



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22 Jun 2015, 10:16 pm

I have a male genetic parent. I wouldn't abuse the word "father" by using it for him.

Can you get away? Can you plan another life, or continue it elsewhere?

The best thing I ever did was get away from my "family." They don't know any other way to be, I suppose. Of course, the physical separation had to be followed by an emotional one, but it worked out well, over time.

My best wishes to you.