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sa6300
Emu Egg
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Joined: 5 Aug 2015
Age: 36
Posts: 2

05 Aug 2015, 10:25 pm

Hi everybody.

I believe I posted the original thread in the wrong place, apoligies!

Since I was a teenager, I started to feel very different from everybody else.

I tried to blend in, I had acquaintances, but only one friend. He is my best friend. He is so similar to me, and I feel like we have become more similar over time.

I can talk to people I trust, but I hide my real traits because most people think I am "weird"


I obsess over things, I resarch them.

I feel scared of being looked at and hide in my car when I go out in public.

I am obsessed with maps and I am obsessed with where places are and being able to see them from far away. I also obsess over aeroplanes and where they are flying.

Bright lights, heat, and loud noses disturb me.

Sport makes me bored. I cant watch it, I cant play it, I cant listen to people talking about it.

I feel like I have social anxiety, but at the same time I can talk to people I trust.

I fear most other humans, because in the past they look at me strangely, laugh at me, talk about me, straight up tell me I am WEIRD, or avoid me.

I just want to feel like I am normal and that there are other people like me.

I am happy when I am alone, and my interests and rituals make me feel comfortable.

I feel like there is nothing wrong with me and everybody else is WEIRD.

Help! ? :?



Owl123
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Joined: 9 Jul 2015
Age: 30
Posts: 146
Location: Philippines

06 Aug 2015, 5:57 am

sa6300 wrote:
Hi everybody.

I believe I posted the original thread in the wrong place, apoligies!

Since I was a teenager, I started to feel very different from everybody else.

I tried to blend in, I had acquaintances, but only one friend. He is my best friend. He is so similar to me, and I feel like we have become more similar over time.

I can talk to people I trust, but I hide my real traits because most people think I am "weird"


I obsess over things, I resarch them.

I feel scared of being looked at and hide in my car when I go out in public.

I am obsessed with maps and I am obsessed with where places are and being able to see them from far away. I also obsess over aeroplanes and where they are flying.

Bright lights, heat, and loud noses disturb me.

Sport makes me bored. I cant watch it, I cant play it, I cant listen to people talking about it.

I feel like I have social anxiety, but at the same time I can talk to people I trust.

I fear most other humans, because in the past they look at me strangely, laugh at me, talk about me, straight up tell me I am WEIRD, or avoid me.

I just want to feel like I am normal and that there are other people like me.

I am happy when I am alone, and my interests and rituals make me feel comfortable.

I feel like there is nothing wrong with me and everybody else is WEIRD.

Help! ? :?


We have a lot of similarities based on what you posted. I also do have one friend like me, but she's more confident and outgoing person. I'd often wanted to blend in yet at the end of the day I still feel there's something wrong with me. I try my best everyday to feel better yet I often lose my energy in socializing. I am aware that I am different from most of the people around me. Most of my classmates even have an impression on me that I am a weirdo. I'd feel weird when I'm with other people because the feeling is strange, and oftentimes I fail to look in a person's eyes because it's uncomfortable. You said you wanted to feel normal and that there are people like you. I supposed you have that feeling you are different, don't worry you're not alone. And besides, we're not bounded by any differences in terms of connecting with one another as a human being. I also wanted to find someone like me, that I hope could understand me and encourage one another to be our best.