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Ok, so there isn't a rant page on this site unfortunately which would be nice to keep this post in its proper place and context but f**k it here I go.

I hate being autistic, I hate being high functioning, and other Autistic people are just pissing me off right now. Why? Because I tried socializing, I tried making friends with people like me who are autistic who I might be able to connect with" But every ASD person I have met in person are too incapable of doing anything except sitting around like a hermit. How did I meet these people? I meet them at a group if it can be believed, yes they are capable of leaving their homes and coming to a group but don't bother to try socializing with others like themselves yet keep complaining they don't have any friends and are unhappy and lonely. That is what sucks about about being in the middle, high functioning; I can't do anything with the severe cases and the high functioning people like me still prefer to complain but do nothing about it.

But what really irritates me is that I have actually worked all my life trying to learn how to socialize and actually develop an intrinsic desire to socialize. But everyone else on the spectrum seems incapable despite all their complaints and woes that they can't make friends. They are better at complaining than trying to make their social lives better when there are actual opportunities to do so, when someone on the spectrum tries to meet them halfway but still prefer to do nothing.

High functions complain about their predicament but dont bother to make any actual effort even with people who are like them. I feel like I'm losing my mind, its a purgatorial catch 22: I can't be friends with Neuro-typicals because I'm Autistic, and I can't be friends with ASD people who want friends because they are too autistic and seem to be clinically incapable No wonder such a website exists in the first place. No wonder so many f*****g post are just the same repeat of last one with a different handle.

I actually reached a point where I was very much absent from this site because I didn't need it for any insight or help anymore because I tried to start making a social life for myself with typicals and ASD people but no.

Sometimes I get infuriated with the same things that you do. When my parents try to make a friend out of someone with ASD is just doesn't work. This also happens at school. Maybe it's because I'm hanging out with a lot of neurotypicals and just plain weird guys. And also my desire to be well respected in the social scene at my school.
I get what you mean by saying that you hate being autistic. Maybe you should. try socializing with neurotypicals, because maybe they will help you fell more confident with your social skills. Forget any painful experiences you've had with the in the past, and branch out into the outside world. Maybe all you need is a slight broadening of horizons. Perhaps with the words I have written, maybe you won't hate yourself as much anymore. All you need is a confidence and self-esteem.

Your avatar looks like Ernie Kovacs a little bit.

Just look in different places around your area. I've had (and continuing to have) the same problem but sometimes the payoff is worth it.

My husband has the same issues. He doesn't truly "pass" in real life, so NTs already wonder what's his deal from the get go. He goes to an adult ASD support group, and the super high functioning just b***h and whine too. The group makes plans for outings, and many of the lower function group will show up, but the 5 that have no problems getting dressed, washed, put the door for work or school never show. So next month they will crab again how the universe hates them.

I think with that five it is more depression and anxiety driving the avoidance than ASD.

*when I mean lower functioning, all the people in the group have Aspergers. "Lower" means real issues with a group setting and sensory overload. The five main gripes state groups/sensory overload is not their problem.

I think I would find these people annoying.