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Hi. I don't want to say my name. But I am a 20 year old female from Canada. I think I might have Asperger's but I haven't been diagnosed. I did see a psychologist once when I was around 15-16 who wanted to test me for Asperger's, but I never went back (for familial reasons) so I remain undiagnosed, but I'm not the only one in the world who has had this thought (I didn't tell her I thought this; it was her idea). At the very least, I'm very shy and socially anxious. I have no friends and I mean that literally- I have acquaintances but I've never managed to make an actual FRIEND.

I think I'm joining here because I want people to interact with. I am currently on a student exchange so while I'm from Canada, I'm in France. It's been weird being here because I live with my family at home, so even if I don't socialise (I don't), I still have some people to talk to. Here I don't talk to anyone, except banks and insurance people and whatever else- but no socialising. I was planning to go to some of the exchange student events but then I just didn't. The idea of going to a wild party makes me very anxious. I don't know. I like the IDEA of having a friend but then when I actually do it, I don't like it that much. Does anyone else feel that way? It's not like I hate people or anything- I just enjoy being alone and doing my own thing. Anyway, I thought maybe some online socialisation would make me feel a little less lonely. I tend to ramble a bit, as you can see (although in person I hardly talk at all), sorry about that.

My interest is writing fiction I guess. I kind of live in imaginary worlds in my head. Usually I'm not "being me"- I'm some other person I created. That sounds really weird. It's actually weird for me to write as myself. Some of my imaginary characters are better developed than I am. But I'm trying to be real and maybe being here will help.

I'm also interested in autism. I'm in my third year of university studying psychology. I currently plan to pursue a PhD and do research on autism. I'm particularly interested in language development, but everything about autism fascinates me. I've done a lot of volunteering with a centre for kids with various special needs, and have also babysat several autistic children over the years.

Other than that I don't really have any interests. As I'm writing this out I'm feeling weirder and weirder. Oh well. Hopefully there are people here that can be my virtual friends anyway...
Thanks for reading.

Welcome!

Yes, I know that feeling. I have that for years actually. But when I finally got into internet communication I found out that writing with people from some distance is much easier for me to handle and doesn't feel like that. I have found a few people I write regularly with here. Maybe it is better for me that in opposite to face-to-face communication there is the possibility to take some time for answering and I can process everything before I have to comment on it. For me it is a great opportunity to avoid lonliness and still to be able to deal with the social part. I don't hate people either, it is just easier for me that way.
Anyways, if you are interested feel free to send me a pm any time.


What kind of fiction do you write?
I sometime have that "not being me" feeling, too. That fits to the fact that I get quite opposite comments of how I am like depending on who you ask because I have different "characters" for different environments.

Welcome! I can relate a lot to what you posted. I also have trouble making close friends, and a lot of the time I also don't want to be with friends and just want to be by myself. I'm also very interested in autism, and disabilities in general. And I like to create imaginary worlds and characters. Can you tell us a bit about your imaginary worlds?

hi, 761884. welcome. i like to write, too, but i'm mostly a non-fiction sort of girl. your career plans are admirable. best of luck with them.

Hey 761884 welcome.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Thanks guys, What a friendly welcome.

I don't really create a "world" but a scenario and characters that live in it. When I was younger, I used to have characters living in Brambley Hedge and The Faraway Tree (and additions to these places that I made up), but nowadays they're all humans living on Earth. I wish I could write fantasy and actually make up a world, but I can't really.

Most of the stories I've ever written, including the one I'm writing now, are based on relationships and how events can change how people interact. "A Sack of Teeth" by Grant Buday is a book in a similar kind of style. I don't know what that's called; I've never formally studied writing.

What about you, TheAP, what kinds of worlds do you create?

Hi, 761884, and welcome to Wrong Planet. I'm a non-Aspie, but I love the Aspie/autism community. I've loved WrongPlanet ever since I found it almost 8 years ago!

I've created quite a few over the years, but right now I have two. Like I said, I'm really into mental/neurological disabilities, so both of my current "worlds" tie into that in some way. One is a set of schools where all the students have some sort of disability. The other is a forum for people who have some sort of abnormality, like they have disabilities or mental illnesses or they are transgender. I am always creating new characters and scenarios for my "worlds".

They sound interesting (and actually quite a bit like what I do which is interesting too).