First: I never researched behaviors linked to violence like hullicinating etc. I just am guessing at things or don't know.
My thoughts on this is that its easy to analyze the problem with lables. I can be doing the same thing.
But I think that that should be reserved for the preliminary step people make to judge a situation.
Second: Since this autism and schizophrenia thing is popularized in society, I can see lots of clutter around the internet etc. of people, using their intuition like that on this subject matter.
Its also probably strange of me because I seem to look at some things kind of like a natural disaster that either could be linked to other people or the persons psychology themselves when it happens. On many matters like this one, I usually am not just calling someone a psycho.
But there are ways to attempt objectiveness to consider the causes.
Its also an oppertunity for me to really kind of think of things from another point of veiw myself. I often feel that people around me are just one-sided because of the unstable nature of things that they deal with that is their personal responsibility like themselves or of their children etc..
Many things are unstable...
But there is also influences to that as well. What makes me fixated on things / people and what is happening I cannot explain the barrier. But maybe the barrier goes both ways as imaginary and an opportunity to act on things (not saying violently, though).
On a side-note: some people appear to want to consider what his slurred speech had anything to do with his state of mind and it may be alcohol or the fight or flight response or just something as simple as that...
From what I have found of something like schizophrenia, however, is that it makes people so irrational that they don't know how to plan and organize a violent act. People who hear voices land out in the street homeless if nobody supports them and there is almost inevetibleness in them having really poor heigene etc if he was like that. And he was so pre-occupied with his own ego.
I wonder if multiple personality disorder could contribute to something like this.
I do additionally know that he advertised himself as very detactched from him expressing his expected reaction out of people or external things like factual information and events. He was very obsessed. Maybe his mind likes to obssess over things.
Often though, people who are in schizophrenia / delusional obsess over religious phenomena and he seemed very much like an outsider. But the striking thing was that he had feelings which were attached to things that hurt him.
He wasn't just being like "The spirit of "x"/ satan and heaven and hell". He was attaching his emotions to things that he felt overwhelmed him by its vast presence. This wasn't tied to any magical force or mysticsim, it was tied to as he says "spoiled brats", "the world and its wars", and "careless frat people" that don't at all care about anyone but themselves.
Somehow, he felt alienated.. Its like his mind contaminated his well-being because there was no way out. Nobody feels pain and fear and anger like he did. So it was a real world he found and that he pulled things out from externalty. Everything that was real was a fantasy to him. He spoke of his contimanition and the world that hates him... Its not impossible that peoples minds give up on anything meaningful to life so they regress: broken people that bleed vengence.
20 Apr 2007, 7:28 pm
