i occasionally, when i'm having mysterious body problems or have a big thing planned for tomorrow, absolutely dread sleeping because it nearly invariably means staying up far too late tossing turning, worrying, freaking out.
for example, a few weeks ago when i went two nights with an unknown foreign object in my eye, my worrying about it being in there turned into an awful fear of parasites in my eyes, what were normal hypnic jerks i thought were parasites messing with my brain.
maybe i can consider sleeping during the afternoon (where it may be easier) and just pulling an all nighter...maybe sleeping afterwards once it has been taken care of. i haven't had nightmares in years but i totally get your not wanting to go to sleep.
these days...i can't wait to hit the hay. i wish to sleep forever.
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