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Monadnock14
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13 Apr 2016, 3:07 pm

hey :)
I'm a 14 yr old girl and i go to a grammar school in the UK. I keep on walking out of classes though and SEN have tried to help but the school are trying to chuck me out. don't blame them really. iv'e been really depressed lately and having some unwelcome thoughts :( something happened in drama that keeps on happening. So i was sitting in Drama (last lesson of the day) and we were reading our new GCSE script for the first time. My teacher asked me to read and i said no, she said okay and someone else did my part. Then i started thinking about everything, i got really hot and sweaty and it felt like everyone around me was shouting. My heart was beating at 100mph and i felt dizzy. We were all in a circle and i felt trapped and crowded.I was worrying about loads of things.Then the lights became super bright and i knew i needed to get out. I tried to hold on as long as i could but when i couldnt hold it in i ran out and i just.. ran. i knew if i stayed i'd embarrass myself. i'm really worried what i would do if i stay because i feel like i just need to run around bang my head jump up and down and scream but i know i cant, i know it's not socially acceptable but i feel like i get to the point where i have no control and i have no idea what i would no. so i just run out and then somehow after like half an hour of walking i calm myself down. but the thing is after 5 minutes everyones looking for me. I'm really stuck, i dont know what to do when this happens. The teachers have been told not to let me out so i cant say can i leave when this happens and usually i probably can't talk. The thing is nobody notices. Should i just stay and just let what happens happen? I'm so confused, i dont know what to do! What can happen when a teen girl has a meltdown? Nothings ever happened infront of anyone before . please help



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14 Apr 2016, 6:49 pm

^ 8O 8O 8O I feel the exact same way! I don't walk out of class, so I end up holding the meltdown inside me until I feel like I'm going to explode or run around screaming, and no one notices me. Could you ask to be excused to the washroom when you feel a meltdown coming? Sometimes it seems like it would be better for my mental and emotional health if I wasn't in school at all. I'm sending lots of love and support to you! :heart:


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HankMardukis
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25 May 2016, 8:26 pm

Is there a counselor, teacher or aide that you could contact when you just HAVE to leave the room and would you be able to contact them in that moment? Or in the minute or two after you left? If you had a cell phone and a number you could text to say something like "meltdown. I'll be ok. Back to class as soon as possible". Then they know you are ok and they know you aren't taking off or doing something unsafe and you get to do what is necessary for you to feel safe.

Is there anybody in your school that could help you set up such a plan?

Just a thought.

Good Luck.