Introducing The_Joker

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I am currently twenty nine years old and live in northern Minnesota. I'm homeless and live out of a shelter. I've been homeless off and on the last eight years. I think that I have dyslexia, Asperger's, and a mild form of autism. I work off and on sporadically at temp jobs other than that I am chronically unemployed.

I am currently waiting on a psychiatric diagnosis for my evaluation on being dyslexic, having Asperger's, and autism.

I already have a diagnosis on having acute learning disabilities. Did testing for that.

Most of life I've lived in denial about having any sort of problems out of stubbornness which is why only within the last year of my life have I begun the painful process of dealing with my various problems and conditions.

I am high functioning autistic which means while dealing with a disability I am quite intelligent. I am also quite physically fit and most people looking at me wouldn't even know that I have any disabilities, impairments, or difficulties at all.

Subjects that interest me are philosophy, psychology, sociology, economics, poetry, geo politics, world history, science, biology, evolution, and physics just to name a few. I've learn all these things on my own in the last eleven years and am self educated which usually is a rarity for poor working class people like myself which I know all too well.

Being chronically unemployed I spend most of my time at the library or at a friend's apartment. I have no money and exist everyday as a penniless underclass.

My dyslexia is a curse. On the SAT which I've taken I have one of the highest reading comprehension scores in the country but also one of the lowest math test scores as well. I view myself as a sort of tortured damned genius or perhaps what people in the past called a idiot savant. Ultimately I am very cynical where I describe myself as a sort of anarchistic nihilist and I don't have much faith in humanity, authority, or public institutions whatsoever. I generally see the worst in people. I suppose that I joined this website wondering if there is people that I can relate to or not. Time will tell in those regards.I honestly do feel like an alien living on a foreign planet. A prisoner on a planet that resembles an insane asylum and while most think I'm insane I view it to be the other way around where a majority of everybody else are the insane ones.

I'm single and have no children. I have nothing but terrible experiences with the opposite sex and find dating or relationships in modern society to be disgustingly decadent.

At present time I am waiting for my diagnosis evaluation so I can begin finding public housing and work through the state. I of course hate this prospect but also feel that I have no other options. I am hoping that with my new diagnosis the state will help me get back to school as well where I've thought about studying in welding or machinery.

Either that or in the next couple years the global economy collapses, total anarchy everywhere, and world war III in which case after living the life I have I'd could care less given my utter contempt for civilization in general.

So, this is my life and where I stand on things currently.

Hi and Welcome, I'm glad you can stay at a shelter or a friend's apartment because I know what northern MM winters are like, I'm originally from N WI but now I live in AZ. I hope you will find some answers and friendship here. There's tons to read. I also hope you get a diagnosis nailed down that can put you on the path to getting the services you need. If one of your interests could be welding, I'd seriously look into that because I've heard there is a shortage of welders now, so that should mean job opportunities once you have acquired the skills. I'm married for 41 years but have no kids. That's probably a good thing because I would have been a terrible mother. I just can't connect to babies and little kids like other women seem to have no problem doing. Anyway, just wanted to welcome you to WP.

I get that totally! I have a very small list of people that I want to socialize with too. It's not that I didn't want kids, when I got married, I expected I'd have kids. But that didn't work out, and I've come to accept it. I'll be waiting for your update on the dx.

Welcome to WP. I hope things work out well for you in the near future.

Hey The Joker welcome.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Welcome to WP! I'm interested in psychology too.

Hello Joker, I am glad you are able to keep out of the cold somehow I cannot imagine how dreadful such a path you have had is and hope you are on a better road now, welcome!

I'm sorry to hear of your poor living situations, and I hope it gets better. I am also self diagnosed as having asperger's syndrome, but have never taken to getting a diagnosis from a psychiatrist like you have been. I hope that will be an interesting and insightful experience for you and that it helps you get to better places. Looking forward to reading more of your updates in this thread!

Anyways, welcome to Wrong planet!