I am very, very socially awkward. As I'm older, I'm becoming a lot more conscious about my poor social skills, which makes me feel even more on-edge when talking to people.
I'm not sure if it's shyness though. I actually enjoy talking to people and it makes me feel good, but even when I'm feeling fully confident, familiar with the person, and eager to talk to them, I'm always getting things wrong.
* I often don't know how to reply to things other than 'cool' or 'that's nice' etc.
* I've killed loads of conversations, or at the very least made them stagnant.
* I might ask questions that others find inappropriate or too nosy.
* I say stuff that confuses others
* My words sometimes come out wrong and jumbled.
Sometimes I feel unsure about talking to people in case I say something that makes them think I'm strange or whatever.
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I'm sailing across Spectrum Sea, in my little boat.
The waters of the port were choppy. After I set off, there was a long, massive storm.
Years later, however, the sea calmed. I'm still on tranquil sea, but I'll never reach the Neurotypical Beach.