"Can relate to this - there is nothing that I am interested in, and everything feels futile."
yes, sir. yes, ma'am.
likewise. in the past (and still in the current), i have had various obsessions.
for example:
eating a certain number servings per food group daily. without effort or awareness, i count them.
drinking what is now 5 liters water daily. a lot for someone under 110#
sleeping or lying in bed 8 hours daily
leaving the dungeon at least 10 hours daily
not showering for 216 days
getting obsessed about random s**t and asking meaningless questions
in the past, obsessed about biking, running, martial arts, lifting weights
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at this point, ain't interested in nothing. at least, nothing that appears productive. on the other hand, nothing appears productive. precious little "friends" end up dumping me sooner or later. they all act like special snowflakes. in Dr Spock fashion. but they are all the same. they label everything and everyone as completely good or bad. they say "huh" and "what" instead of "excuse me". they correct me every time i do or say the slightest thing wrong. and it is "wrong" if they do not like or understand it. while they act like they can do no wrong.
and then they dump me on facebook.
precious lil "most people" are not worth the energy it takes to interact with them. they truly believe they have a moral right to never have to do, get, or become anything they do not like. entitled little idiots.
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yes everything feels futile.
school
work
transition from female to male
social interactions