ZachGoodwin wrote:
There are many people who are lonely and who put themselves down and who like you are embarrassed to talk to other people.
Well, no, I'm not embarrassed to talk to other people.
It's that due to being autistic, I'm slower to process social cues and conversation.
So I really DO want to talk, but it can be hard to get a word in edgewise
when the other people are doing all the talking, keeping the eye contact between themselves, etc.,
such that by the time you talk,
you're either interrupting (normally without meaning to), or
the topic of conversation has already ended
and they've started a new one
before you had a chance to contribute to the old one.
ZachGoodwin wrote:
Some people we can assume have lots of friends but once we know them well have little to none.
Yep. Popularity is largely an act. It tends to be superficial.
ZachGoodwin wrote:
I feel like I have to be interested in what everyone is interested in. Some days I feel like I have an oppositional intrusive force I am unaware of that exists when I try to be nice to people. I feel people put a mask on to hide that I have this force. It's insane! I can't even describe it well.
You're describing it just fine.
ZachGoodwin wrote:
You aren't alone.
Think we need to rename "Wrong Planet" to "Wrong Planets"?
In this case, do two wrongs make a right?