i'm worried my retainer won't fit anymore after not wearing it for months.
i'm worried that i won't get a straight answer as to which school year i should select when applying for federal financial aid.
i'm worried that discord and WP are taking over my life.
i'm worried of not having enough time in the day to work on my projects.
i'm worried that i won't be able to focus when i practice music.
i'm worried that the grasses on my current painting in progress won't turn out crisp and well defined like i want them to.
i'm worried about what will happen to us when my father no longer has a job.
i'm worried about the suspension or transmission in my car failing while i currently do not possess the facility to pay for it.
i'm worried that i wont meet my fundraising goal for the next 5 months, if i don't i won't be able to buy that yamaha digital piano i've been eyeing.
i'm worried that i misinterpreted the actions and motivation of my limerent object, and by ghosting her and cutting her off i thrusted her into worse depression and isolation, and i was, in fact, her only confidant.
i'm worried that my job won't last until at least june, which i need it to.
i'm worried that i won't pass my spanish class and i won't maintain my current GPA, which i need to in order be accepted into the honors program.
i'm worried that i'm becoming dependent on alcohol and other substances.
i'm worried my reclusive, aloof and quiet demeanor will prevent me from finding meaningful long term companionship. i HAVE been in relationships before and i DO know they help make me happy, cause they do. so it's not a question of "well, how do you know companionship will make you happy?" BUT i was only in those relationships, because, out of sheer dumb luck or chance, they fell into my lap. they approached first, and i'm worried that since i have practically zero experience in approaching others (my last attempt at approaching a female went so badly she quit her job because of it) i'm going to have to resign myself to waiting for others to come to me first, which seems extremely unlikely as i'm no longer in high school, or any social setting where i can meet many others around my age with ease. (no, college doesn't count, it's a completely different beast, far too isolating).
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