Its a lonely place out here

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I have had a recent AHA moment in discovering that I might (I am) on the spectrum. Its was such a relief mentally and physically to get an explanation of why i felt like an alien.....every specialist whose website or checklist I checked was like reading about myself especially from a women's perspective it was like they were talking about all I went through. I haven't yet gotten an professional diagnosis due to constrains as I have been based in East Africa the last 3yrs. I am in the midst of setting up my business and reaching an actual production stage and it has been an hard fought achievement(I have burnt many bridges and assumption to get to where I am today) that I cant abandon now to get the diagnosis itself. So one of the reasons I became a member of wrong planet to start some form of engagement with people in the same boat.....its the researcher in me! Its hard to talk about this to someone who doesnt get it and also the cultural constraints put upon me as I am in a field which hardly has females in it. I am feeling even more lonelier now I've had this aha moment I am not sure how to cope its becoming such an uphill battle and the lack of having people to talk about it to and not get to told to toughen up or its nonsense nothing wrong with you I tell ya I wish I could just give an uppercut lol one shouldn't resort to violence its at least an imagined one. Lets not even open up the turmoil of intimate previous relationships and that whole malarky of we are social animals we need social interaction well f**k off every single guy I've met has made me retreat back into myself and now of this aha moment I don't even want to consider people not on the spectrum its been so exhausting (should I feel bad about thinking this its me protecting myself maybe). What I am really tired of is the emotional exhaustion and the need for a mental and physical connection in a safe place to be understood and not having that palpitation and angst of lessening why I feel the way I do and maybe I might get this in this community who knows its a f*****g Everest moment. lool I lost the trail of what I was saying but hey ho!

(assuming that you are not Kenyan)
How does it feel to mix with the Kenyan people?

location, kenya. anyways. welcome to wrong planet. we all have our moments, and some more than others. and we are not a host of angels here. aliens, demons, obscure things. some of us even enlist as humans. this is the wrong planet. and yes, the neuro build alone doesnt connect. we are all different. there are moments to share, tehre are moments to not. u get used to it.

Hi!
Welcome to the society of asocial loners connected by their inability to connect!

I wasn't raised in East Africa I grew up in the Netherlands so I identify as Dutch......I have an mixed East African heritage it was great at first you know back in the so called motherland and all but I am always considered diaspora a watered down version of an East African although the hang ups I had in the Netherlands where not there when I first arrived but yet its been quite frustrating to get past that in a sense. I see myself as a stakeholder and my business is about the creation of social upward mobility of the local community this then made it difficult for tthem to ostracise me I kinda said eff you I still giving back to mu community....



Okay my maybe I used the wrong terminology (English is not my first language I speak about 6 so grammar or vocab can be lost in that) being or feeling like an "Alien" it was just to get across the differences I experienced before.....Yes I am a human being and we all come in different shapes and sizes yet it doesn't take away how I was portrayed as the other since infancy and finding out about the autism spectrum and wrong planet had a certain rightness inside me a settling in my being which is absolutely wonderful in my opinion.


Thank you for commenting though

Hi!
Welcome to the society of asocial loners connected by their inability to connect!


Thanks for the Welcome (The society of asocial loners whew.......that made me smile very succinctly put and true)


Ha! my asocialness is something I wont take for granted now I am aware of this community I have been reading up so much and things are making sense albeit I got here later in life but better late than never eh....

we all have been at this point.

I’ve heard many things about Nairobi—both good and bad.

One of my special interests is cities around the world.

Nairobi is a beautiful city with all the amenities of the west lol but the weather and wild lions in the national park.

Its a place I would recommend to go and see and visit there is so much to discover you wont able to do it in one go but its a place to be going back to and kenyans are very welcoming. But not to sugar coated it has all the same problems as all the big cities in the west have....so always be safe in your travels

ill definitely look forward to not be a stakeholder one day but in all honest I want to give back and make an impact on the environment especially preserving it so that many more generations can enjoy what we have.

Aha the uppercut...ill try but can't say there wont be a rumble in the jungle moment ce la vie eh....

I know Nairobi has an excellent climate. Hardly ever gets to 30 Celsius, or down to 10 Celsius.

Some Aspies when fully mature become something very unique. They are called NONCONFORMIST.

Here are a few Quotes on Nonconformists:

Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do. – Rob Siltanen: Apple, "Think Different" campaign

It gives me great pleasure indeed to see the stubbornness of an incorrigible nonconformist warmly acclaimed. - Albert Einstein

Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect. - Mark Twain

Our wretched species is so made that those who walk on the well-trodden path always throw stones at those who are showing a new road. - Voltaire

Not all those who wander are lost. - J.R.R. Tolkien

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life. - Winston Churchill

Do not follow where the path may lead. Go, instead, where there is no path and leave a trail. - Ralph Waldo Emerson

A "normal" person is the sort of person that might be designed by a committee. You know, "Each person puts in a pretty color and it comes out gray." - Alan Sherman

The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself. - Friedrich Nietzsche

The average man is a conformist, accepting miseries and disasters with the stoicism of a cow standing in the rain. - Colin Wilson

Freedom began on the day the first sheep wandered away from the herd. ― Marty Rubin