hurtloam wrote:
cberg wrote:
I have no idea what anyone wants from me.
More often than not, it seems like everyone wishes I would disappear. I don't know why but I'm sure it has something to do with why I'm posting here.
I'm sure that's not true. My sibling's best friend is very depressed at the moment. He doesn't believe he's good at anything and doesn't think we care about him, but we do. He won't accept my invitations to come out and do things with us.
You may have a distorted view of yourself too due to anxiety.
Is there anything you can do solo just to get out the house? Go visit somewhere nice.
I think said distorted view is manifesting itself in my friend's eyes. I've got a good amount of work to do & I'm actually moving a bed into a new house today. I guess now's as good a day as any to go visit my usual cafe. I know almost everyone who works there anyway.
I'll keep trying to remember that I'm seen as a really strange person rather than a walking algorithm or bioengineered robot.
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It is fear, anxiety, and lack of self-esteem. It is also the result of people "letting you down".
As such, I'm choosing not to view anyone I care about as a letdown. They have their own troubles but we have to address all this together eventually.
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