Impossible for me to goto university as one needed wealthy parents back in those days. The course itself was free back then, but all other costs one would need to cover from books to food to somewhere to live.
Secondly, I went to collage after I left school where it was closer to home, and back then, up until I was 18, family allowance was available. After 18 I could no longer study.
Now when I was in collage (Real spelling college, but for me was more like collage!) I found that I spent so much mental energy masking to try to fit in, I just didn't do too well despite having a slightly above average intelligence. Also, prosopragnosia was taking its toll as I kept handing in work to the wrong lecturers etc. I thought it was the same teacher teaching a few different subjects.
On top of this I was so shy and also vunerable to being bullied. It was youthes messing about but I took it seriously. For me it felt like life or death and it took place just before the exams so all my attention went on surviving... It was the time when my mask had broken down and I was completely vunerable and in an internal mess! I didn't care what results I had. Ended up with 9 out of 18 units of a National Diploma in General Engineering, which is not much as far as education goes.
I have never wanted to return to education. I did do night classes and resat GCSE maths after college where everyone was adults so they were all better behaved... and I had 100% in it. But apart from that I never want to go through such times again.
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