Marknis wrote:
Twilightprincess wrote:
Marknis wrote:
Did you ever get to prove him wrong in anything if he’s still alive? I still haven’t proved my older brother wrong and it makes me want to kill myself sometimes.
Not only did being nice fail for me, I am not getting any younger. I’ve actually been told I can’t talk to women my age or in their 20’s and that I am only compatible with “grannies”.
Ultimately, you should be living your life for you, not for anyone else.
I was always told to live my life for God and I still get told the “He has a plan for you!” crap despite how I tell them my faith shattered due to depression.
Whenever I am around my siblings, I am the only one of them who isn’t married and has children. I hate it so much but my hands are tied.
Lots of people tell you things that are wrong. While I wouldn't prioritize proving your brother or anyone else wrong, at the same time it sounds like you've got loads of people around you who give you bad advise that clearly doesn't help you but possibly even doesn't help them. Prove them all wrong by formulating your own path out. What would you advise someone in a position similar to yours? Perhaps someone who wouldn't consider suicide, so that isn't an alternative to dealing with the misery and hopelessness. It certainly will carry risk, it certainly will involve dealing with new stresses and discomfort but it will break the current cycle that's clearly harming you by leaving you feeling this way constantly.
I know people on here often advise you that a change of surroundings would likely serve you well. Would that be possible to plan for?
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