AprilR wrote:
Probably not healthy but i try to hate and undermine myself. Like i'm too dirty to even have such thoughts.
No, that definitely doesn't sound healthy.
You sound charming, intelligent and level-headed in most of your posts, but even f**ked-up, low-functioning perverts are entitled to have crushes, so I don't imagine your strategy is helpful, let alone healthy.
Personally, I just remind myself I haven't met the person and don't know them, I just like how they present to society and the personality I imagine them to have.
I find it harder when it's a crush that basically 'starts all over again' every time you see the person. There's a woman at work like that, it's been years and I still swoon sometimes at the sight of her, even on bad days.
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