Difficulties that you used to have

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Since diagnosis, I no longer have to put up with the biggest, meanest bully I have ever encountered in my life, as he has slowly come to realise that I deserve compassion rather than punishment for my traits.

That bully was, of course, myself.

Now the world of masking and prior to my dx .. and not understanding.. these issues But not being able to fake a mask was far worse,physical abuse as i grew . practically a major part of my life , leads me to realise that due to many events along the way ,, Growing up and having typical aspiie accident but was a complete life ending type of accident ,, which most doctors considered a miracle to come out of , much less recover, But as typical as aspie , did not understand not getting well.. so even learned too mask physical disabilities,, why not , did not know better.. Then another accident , not near as bad , but docs said if another would be a gonner.. ooppss , guess i forgot that too. So thats almost 2 different lives , and masking them all. Then you find out the basis for your personality issues ,, yet one more , life to live.. So now at least understanding and feel okay just to be me .. although dont let the world see it , So alone time is a good thing often. Or crafting and creative time/
Is met with more joy and understanding that it is a good thing for my own well being . But still not handling big changes very well..

Major anxiety over conversations - what will I say, what I could have said better, replaying, etc.
Always aware of where all the exits were.
Monotone voice, lack of a smile.
Not asking how people were, or asking about their families.
Difficulty remembering names and faces.
These all got better with age and practice, facing my fears.

I actually used to be able to swollow pills just as is, now I need a bit of liquid to get them down. Thankfully I don't need any pills normally, except for a bit of vitamin D during the winter time.

/Mats