How COVID-19 is affecting me

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I think that the pandemic has managed to hit every single person on this earth where it hurts. I wanted to share the things that are bothering me.

High School seniors not getting to have the experience of graduating HS. I graduated HS last year and I know a lot of people in the class of 2020. They will have to go the rest of their lives not getting to experience a graduation ceremony or party. I feel their pain. I know college students are dealing with something similar.

I've heard about how some couples aren't able to see each other. Relationship related things are an emotional kryptonite for me so it will be a challenge for me to keep those stories out of my mind for the sake of my own sanity.

I am not able to see my mom right now. She works at a retirement home and she's had some exposures.

My mom had gotten me season tickets to an amusement park 2 hours away for christmas. I was planning on going many times and now I don't know if I'm going to go even once.

I am deprived of any ways I can meet new people. I had found out about this painting class not long before this became a pandemic. That's obviously going to have to wait. In the event that I make a connection with a girl on a dating site, meeting up with her probably wouldn't happen until this is over, which is probably gonna be way longer than I'll like.

And to make all that worse, there's the uncertainty of when this is going to end, whether it'd be 2 months or 12 months from now.

I do still have a job, but outside of that and hanging out at home, there's not much else myself and everyone else are able to do. Brutal times indeed.

I hear you, my friend. Loud and clear.

I’m glad you still have a job.

Take care of yourself.

Things will come together. Maybe sooner for you folks than us in NYC.

Lately I’ve been having feelings that are like when I had something big planned that I have waited a long time for has been ruined, even though the worst things that has happened with me are the amusement park thing and a few family trips. I guess maybe it’s partially bc of how I’ve been thinking about the ways this has affected other people. One big thing that triggers these feelings are when I see signs and ads and stuff that tell us to stay home and practice social distancing. I know the alternative is to put lives at risk but the fact that this is happening at all just feels so f***ed up.

Everyone dealing with more depressing stuff than me, know that you are in my thoughts.

You’re in mine too, buddy.

We will get through this.

Thanks, Kraftie

I went to a concert to listen to one of my favorite pop singers and had a great time. A huge step for me in getting out last year. Like you I'd like to do more but everything is on hold right now.

Though I have very few friends,and do not go out socializing, I am having anxiety and depression due to the isolation.
Even going to the grocery store is becoming intimidating lately.
Plexiglass shields have been installed between shoppers and clerks, colored tape is on the floor to prevent contact, the many shortages, it all is causing fear and is emotionally overwhelming.

It's overwhelming especially for us on the spectrum and ADHD. I have a hard time paying attention, and I have to consciously make sure I am keeping 2 metres apart from others, which is hard work. And no matter how hard I try, each time I get to a check-out I always inadvertently stand too close to the cashier. I just keep forgetting and cashiers get cross with me.

My problem is the more I'm trying to follow rules, the more I accidentally break them, and this is what makes me anxious.

I feel you there. Dunno what your checkout aisles are like in the U.K. but unless you’re going thru a self checkout you HAVE to be a little too close to the cashier. Also, when I’m at the store if I touch something at least in my mind I’m at the point of no return and I HAVE to put it in the cart.

My mother said yesterday that she was proud that I thought of her and dad's safety when I called off going down to visit them for and early Easter supper. But that's because on Friday I checked the online weather forecast to see the whole screen in red with an alert that said COVID-19 IS DEADLY, and it scared the tar out of me. The alert passed the next day, but it's still filled me with anxiety. My mother non-contact delivered some food and Easter treats yesterday, but I am not really enjoying it. In fact I just don't want to eat at all. When I take a nap or go to sleep I feel as if I'm heavily drugged or no longer in this world. Why would I want to be in this world, anyway? It's mainly caused me nothing but anxiety, pain and suffering. I was brought into a world I never asked to be to live a life I never wanted only because two people had unprotected sex.

My mother said that when this is "over", (she should say, "if") we're going to make up for lost time and have some big gathering to celebrate. Yeah right, like I'm going to go right back out and expose myself to filthy human parasites and the many germs they'll be spreading around. The germaphobes have been doing the right thing all along.

I don't want to sound Pollyanna-ish, but instead of counting your vexations, try to count your blessings. Why? It's just less depressing. It might take the form of "1. Nobody in my family has had the coronavirus. 2. I am able to get food. 3. It's springtime (north hemisphere, anyway) and I'm enjoying the improvement in the weather...." et cetera.

Everything else you said in your post resonates with me.  This bit about high-school and college seniors does not.  My family did not greet me after my high school graduation, and I barely remember my college graduation, other than finally having a piece of paper to prove that graduating high school was not just a fluke.

High-schoolers are also being deprived of their proms and spring breaks.

Well, waah freeking waah.  I had neither.

Again, the rest of what you posted was spot-on.

That's a great idea.

1. Not in a war zone or beseiged country like the Ukraine (their meagre supplies even more cut off than before I imagine)
2. Perfume
3. The birds outside cheer up everyone.
The funny one was facing the window and crying for not being able to go to the pond (rain). Immediately stopped as he saw V's of geese flying and said look! geese! geese, where u going geese? shopping! at a house!

lol

Contact the amusement park and see if they will refund or postpone your membership

I purposely didn't go to college graduation. Not everyone goes to graduation. It's just going to be hot, boring, crowded, noisy.

Not everyone follows the quarantine guidelines

I forgot to mention that. Yes, that too.

I guess I can do that for now, but it’ll become harder and harder to do if it’s like, July and not even some of the restrictions that we have to deal with now have been lifted.