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Kitty4670
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29 Jun 2020, 1:39 am

I am depressed, I stayed in bed until 4 pm. I really hate my life, it’s toooo much. My leg pain from my bones that didn’t healed right when I broke my ankle, the pain can be too much, something wrong with my other leg & my foot can be sooo numb & can hurt to walk sometimes. I can have pain in my back. I’m not doing things that I should be doing like ordering groceries, pet stuff & other stuff. I don’t know how to deal stuff. I don’t love my life. I’m tired of staying in, I’m sooo tired of apartment, I am mentally & physically tired. I don’t want to live anymore, I want to die.


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29 Jun 2020, 2:50 am

I'm sorry you're not doing too well.
Not sure how I can help. I'd just encourage you to take things as they come for a while and go easy on yourself and get some rest. Call a friend or a helpline to talk about things. Try to keep eating healthy food and get up and out of the house a little bit every day.
You've felt better in the past, give yourself some time to feel better again.



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29 Jun 2020, 4:14 am

Kitty4670 wrote:
I am depressed, I stayed in bed until 4 pm. I really hate my life, it’s toooo much. My leg pain from my bones that didn’t healed right when I broke my ankle, the pain can be too much, something wrong with my other leg & my foot can be sooo numb & can hurt to walk sometimes. I can have pain in my back. I’m not doing things that I should be doing like ordering groceries, pet stuff & other stuff. I don’t know how to deal stuff. I don’t love my life. I’m tired of staying in, I’m sooo tired of apartment, I am mentally & physically tired. I don’t want to live anymore, I want to die.



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29 Jun 2020, 5:18 am

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29 Jun 2020, 5:29 am

Kitty4670 wrote:
I am depressed, I stayed in bed until 4 pm. I really hate my life, it’s toooo much. My leg pain from my bones that didn’t healed right when I broke my ankle, the pain can be too much, something wrong with my other leg & my foot can be sooo numb & can hurt to walk sometimes. I can have pain in my back. I’m not doing things that I should be doing like ordering groceries, pet stuff & other stuff. I don’t know how to deal stuff. I don’t love my life. I’m tired of staying in, I’m sooo tired of apartment, I am mentally & physically tired. I don’t want to live anymore, I want to die.

i'm sorry that life is tasting bad for you now. :( i can tell you i'm going through many of the same things. it's not easy, for sure. so i'm guessing that OTC painkillers don't work for you. they don't do much for me either. sometimes to drown out the pain in my head i wear headphones with music blasting in it, that is somewhat distracting from the pain. i can walk better with the music blasting in my ears. maybe that could help you also? for the back pain, i find that spinal stretching and core strength exercises help as better muscle tone supports the spine better. please keep talking to us all, don't bottle up the pain, let it out, you will be heard here.



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29 Jun 2020, 5:46 am

{{{{{{kitty}}}}}}

If I lived closer, I would bring you groceries and help ... (in fact, would have been there in Cali a month ago, if not for the plague) ...

Sorry that you are also experiencing similar dear {{{{AB.}}}}



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29 Jun 2020, 5:55 am

Kitty I am holding you in my heart.Is there anyone nearby who can help you? Hope that you will feel better soon. :heart:


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29 Jun 2020, 6:24 am

Kitty, I am so sorry you are feeling down. I broke my ankle 18 months ago and still have pains and weird sensations in my foot and leg. There is tingling and also the foot gets numb and feels cold when nothing else is cold. I don't tell you this to be "poor me" but to let you know it takes a long time for some things to heal. The bone heals easily but other things, tendons, connective tissue, nerves, etc. take much longer.

I have periods when I get "depressed" or down. This is my take on it, when the "depression" is due to a concrete thing, like not being able to walk without pain, or having to stay indoors and alone for months at a time; I think these feelings are the normal result of a concrete problem that is bothering me. What works for me is to rest, rest, rest and not beat myself up for the resting part.

None of this may be particularly helpful for you. I offer it in case you can find comfort in it. If not, let it go.

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29 Jun 2020, 7:08 am

I'm so sorry you're feeling so down, Kitty :(

Pain does wear you down. Please remember to be kind to yourself and let yourself rest. Are there no organisations that can help you with groceries and things? Or family/friends you could stay with or could stay with you until you're feeling back to yourself- just thinking the company might help. I hope you feel better soon, and that the pain eases. :)



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01 Jul 2020, 6:24 pm

Sorry to hear things are horrible. California's a big place but I know there are resources in the Bay Area for ASD types if you live around that area of Cali. I'm in the region too, though I'm new here and haven't built up trust points yet, I know...

Do you have anyone nearby who you trust for support?



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03 Jul 2020, 11:13 pm

Sorry to hear you're feeling down do you have anyone who can check up on you and make sure you're ok?



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03 Jul 2020, 11:18 pm

Juliette wrote:
{{{{{{kitty}}}}}}

If I lived closer, I would bring you groceries and help ... (in fact, would have been there in Cali a month ago, if not for the plague) ...

Sorry that you are also experiencing similar dear {{{{AB.}}}}

Thanks :D I wish I could have an Aspergers friend here, I feel soooooo out of place here with all the NTs & feel all alone. My dad & my sister really don’t understand me.


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03 Jul 2020, 11:28 pm

HirkEukvic wrote:
Sorry to hear things are horrible. California's a big place but I know there are resources in the Bay Area for ASD types if you live around that area of Cali. I'm in the region too, though I'm new here and haven't built up trust points yet, I know...

Do you have anyone nearby who you trust for support?


I live near Los Angels. No one I trust, I don’t even trust my sister too much. I trust my cat.


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03 Jul 2020, 11:29 pm

Mountain Goat wrote:
*Gives Kitty a virtual train*

LOL


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03 Jul 2020, 11:53 pm

you're in good company here, Kitty :cat:



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04 Jul 2020, 1:18 am

Big, cozy dragon hugs for you, Kitty. I’m not dealing with pain really, but exhaustion. But I can completely sympathize on the lack of ability to actually really do anything because of an ailment, on top of the restrictions due to COVID-19, and feeling cooped up because of it. I actually look forward to doctor appointments where I’m literally poked and prodded for most of the time and that usually involve some sort of blood draw or injection, because I actually get to get out of the house.

If there was anything I could do to ease your pain or at least make things less hard on you in some way, I’d do it. You really deserve a break (at least) from your pain, I wish there was something I could do about it. All I can do is offer an abundance of virtual hugs and well-wishes, which I do.


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