Schizophrenia and autism?
I am autistic, I have always been autistic but 3.5 years ago I had a bike accident where a hit and run driver knocked me unconscious.
Since then I have been hearing things and it is getting worse.
Basically I know I am having hallucinations even though they feel real.
The problem is these voices nag and keep sending me into a meltdown.
They won't let me forget problematic things, even for a while, they keep going on and it is doing my head in.
I can't even enjoy my special interests which is where I usually seek refuge as I can't cope with the nastiness of other human beings. Although my special interests are so much more than that and I know I can never make them understand (humans).
They want me to be interested in things I cannot find interest in....and they say they are punishing me for being narcissistic but I feel they are punishing me for being autistic instead.
I am more interested in science than mundanity...
I need sex and they are stopping me which is torture as I have physical needs...they won't let me find a boyfriend
I want a boyfriend but they think I am a narcissist whom will abuse them
No....I just want a boyfriend.
And yes I need sex, I am so frustrated I can't stand the sexual urges, I need relief from the sexual urges
Someone help me please
I thought I could make them understand once
But now I know I can't an d I want to move on and leave it alone but the voices won't let me.
I just want them to shut up especially as they talk rubbish
I just want quiet. I just want quiet....its not even anything deeper
My brain it hurts from their constant talking and the constant emotionality
I feel it as physical pain
They will not accept that it is physical pain I am responding to and not some emotionality
I have had bad experiences in my life and I just want to move on
Its over...its gone
Life is now not then....
my brain is tired from their talking
That isthe problem
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE FOCUS ON THE PROBLEM
MY BRAIN IS TIRED FROM THEIR TALKING
THEY WANT ME TO BE SOCIAL TO BE INTERESTED IN MUNDANITY
i AM BEING TORUTURED FOR BEING AUTISTIC.
i AM BEING PUNNISHED BY THE UNIVERSE FOR BEING AUTISTIC
...Most of us have been there more or less, people are infantilizing the whole pop culture idea of ASD.
Ultimately I think the western inclination to define everybody by some contrived idea of what's wrong with them is maladaptive at best & extremely inhumane at worst.
I'm past the point of ever abetting the charade that I have all my civil rights.
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Having schizophrenic illnesses and autism at the same time is very much possible. I'm one of them.
If what you're experiencing now is unbearable and causes meltdowns, you might need to share (part) of your inner experience with someone you trust, who can then bring you to further psychiatric attention. There is a wide range of treatments available for the condition, no need to give up should the first one fail. Also, the sooner you get help, the better the prognosis. Hallucinations and voices might push you into self-isolation, but it's important to reach out to people near you.
Disclaimer: I'm not a doctor, I can't diagnose you, and I give this advice based on what seems like aural hallucinations on your part.
I think you should go to the doctor and get an MRI, because you may have a head injury.
Schizophrenia is genetic and presents at around age 17-21. Hyperphantasia is a symptom of high functioning autism and will usually present in childhood and fade over time. Hyperphantasia can present similar to schizophrenia in autistic people, and head injuries can cause hallucinations as well.
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If what you're experiencing now is unbearable and causes meltdowns, you might need to share (part) of your inner experience with someone you trust, who can then bring you to further psychiatric attention. There is a wide range of treatments available for the condition, no need to give up should the first one fail. Also, the sooner you get help, the better the prognosis. Hallucinations and voices might push you into self-isolation, but it's important to reach out to people near you.
Disclaimer: I'm not a doctor, I can't diagnose you, and I give this advice based on what seems like aural hallucinations on your part.
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I won't take medications as they mess with my moods too much...i cant stand the mood swings they create.
I just want to be healthy and have energy and they make me tired all the time. They make me angry as well..i don't like the anger.
The main problem i am having is the voices are keeping me awake...I get physical sensations and they are poking my legs all night in a way that is painful and that is causing me to have meltdowns.
They make too much noise sometimes...but i just want them to shut up
They are obsessed with ego...i dont care!! !! about ego!
They want my self hatred (obsessively...too much so, they seem desperate) but I am not into those extremes.
I am ok with myself, i am not perfect but i am not that bad either. They are too black and white but they go on and on and on and on and on and on and on ....
they are not getting what they want they are just driving me mad with their endless blinking naggin'
All i hear when they go on is nag nag nag nag nag nag...they are worse than my mother! And that is sayin' something.
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