Do you ever feel that love might be some kind of quantum force, that, however distant you are from your love, you 'feel' them and that you are connected, somehow?
I believe this. I have carried, who I will refer to as 'the spectacled one', for years now, in my mind.
There is no rival to her mixture of snarkiness, compassion & intelligence, that I have met.
I am not making fun of your need to wear glasses in any way here - I don't want to use your name to ensure your anonymity, after a bit of self-reflection.
I love her so much, that if she uses this as a launch pad to seek out another mate, or to simply be whimsical, I will be happy.