I don't know what to do
Im having a hard time lately. I do not understand what is happening to me. Something isn't right but Im not sure what it is. Im having a hard time with how I see the world. I think Im having an existential crisis or something. I do not know who I am and its very disorienting. Sometimes its very clear who I am and other times it is very fuzzy. I think this is something different than Schizophrenia.
I do things and I understand what's going on in my life most of the time. I have control. But Im struggling with how I view myself sometimes. I sometimes do not agree with what I see in the mirror. I look different than that sometimes. I see myself more as more figurative sometimes like I do not exist fully. I can't understand why I feel this way.
Yeah, I often feel the same too. I have Schizophrenia also.
Depersonalization and derealization is a possible cause from what you describe, and isn't uncommon in Schizophrenia. I guess you could read up on that. Maybe a specific delusion too, but that's rarer and somewhat different to what you describe.
I do things and I understand what's going on in my life most of the time. I have control. But Im struggling with how I view myself sometimes. I sometimes do not agree with what I see in the mirror. I look different than that sometimes. I see myself more as more figurative sometimes like I do not exist fully. I can't understand why I feel this way.
I kind of relate to the mirror thing. I don't have schizophrenia but I do have dissociative identity disorder and I don't always see what I think I should see.
I hope you feel better soon.
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