Tell ya what, do the work you want to do on yourself, and, leave the membership here as a resource if/when needed.
It is okay to find yourself wanting to come here and then pause a moment and say, "Okay, me, why am I going there right now?"
Because ...
One possibility is that what you feel you have been doing here might merely get moved to somewhere else if you delete this membership.
True, we here do not have magical answers which will fix you,
yet we do want the best for you, remember that.
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"There are a thousand things that can happen when you go light a rocket engine, and only one of them is good."
Tom Mueller of SpaceX, in Air and Space, Jan. 2011