I keep losing my abilities

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27 Aug 2022, 2:46 pm

Due to stress.

I am recovering from losing my abilities for 3+ years, due to stress as well.

My NT brother met a woman. Monday he told me he had a girlfriend. Yesterday he told me that he wants to have this person come stay with us for a few days from Tennessee. We live in Oregon. I told him that I would be unable to do so. I had to yell at him when he clearly wouldn't take no for an answer. As if I can have someone living here, even for a few days, that I literally don't know at all. I can't, ever do so.

We talked things out after lunch. He is going to go meet this person instead of them coming here. Which alleviates that problem. But, since he lives with me, and will most likely, eventually, move to be with this person. I can't afford to live where I am without help. So I will worry now. Which will slow down my recovery.

I know nobody can really help me. I posted this, mostly, to just get it out of my system I guess.


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27 Aug 2022, 9:27 pm

My moral support. I can understand the potential financial problem is very worrying. I hope things will work out. Sorry I can't do anything to help.



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28 Aug 2022, 7:17 am

Seems understandable why you feel the way you do. I'm glad your brother eventually was able to listen to your concerns and altered his plans. I guess it might not work out with this person but it could remain a possibility that he might move out eventually anyway. Maybe if he did eventually plan to move out, he might be able to help you talk through and work out what you might need to make things work for yourself without him? I don't know what your relationship with him is like.

I hope things work out ok whatever happens. Keep us updated if you feel like it helps.



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02 Sep 2022, 10:22 am

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02 Sep 2022, 10:31 am

Sounds like burnout. It does get better, it just takes time - sometimes a long time. I know this may not be helpful for you, but sometimes reminding yourself it's burnout, and it will pass puts things in perspective.


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03 Sep 2022, 2:58 pm

Thanks everyone. I wasn't doing well when I started this thread.

I am still having short term memory problems. But I can copy and paste again. Well, most of the time. It is odd to lose such a seemingly simple ability.

My brother is going to Tennessee early in October for a week. I will have to wait and see what happens from there, I guess.

The best thing to come out of this: My mom finally understands, to a certain extent, what I have been going through for 3+ years now. She never fully understood that I lost my abilities to the point where I couldn't tell how hot my food was, and kept burning my mouth, biting my tongue, etc. . My communication skills have been shot all this time, so I can't totally blame her for not getting what I was trying to tell her before she finally got it.

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Sounds like burnout. It does get better, it just takes time - sometimes a long time. I know this may not be helpful for you, but sometimes reminding yourself it's burnout, and it will pass puts things in perspective.


Thanks. The only thing that kept me going. Was the fact that I kept slowly recovering. Just a little bit, every month, for the last two years now. Up until I regressed last month, of course.

If I hadn't kept feeling myself recovering. I wouldn't be able to post this now, because I wouldn't have the skills to do so as well as I can today.

I actually wouldn't be here. In the condition I was in, in late 2020. I wasn't far from being hospitalized if I hadn't posted on Wrong Planet and found out that I was suffering from burnout. Afterwards I started to become calmer, just knowing what I was going through had a name. Having this site to ask questions on, may have saved my life.

Right now, I can deal with the state my head is in. Even a few days ago, the feelings were unmanageable. In that state is where the hopelessness lies. I sill believe I will recover with enough time. And I will hold that belief until I regress again. If I ever regress again, without proper mental stress. That is when I will start worrying.


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03 Sep 2022, 3:46 pm

RoadRatt wrote:
My NT brother met a woman. Monday he told me he had a girlfriend. Yesterday he told me that he wants to have this person come stay with us for a few days from Tennessee. We live in Oregon. I told him that I would be unable to do so. I had to yell at him when he clearly wouldn't take no for an answer. As if I can have someone living here, even for a few days, that I literally don't know at all. I can't, ever do so.

Is there any chance that your brother and you could move to a two-family house, or perhaps re-model your current house so that you could have your own small self-contained apartment within it?

If this is possible, it would solve two problems:

1) Enable both you and him to have more privacy, so that he could have company without disturbing you.

2) Enable you and him to continue living in the same building after he finds a partner.


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03 Sep 2022, 4:38 pm

Mona Pereth wrote:
RoadRatt wrote:
My NT brother met a woman. Monday he told me he had a girlfriend. Yesterday he told me that he wants to have this person come stay with us for a few days from Tennessee. We live in Oregon. I told him that I would be unable to do so. I had to yell at him when he clearly wouldn't take no for an answer. As if I can have someone living here, even for a few days, that I literally don't know at all. I can't, ever do so.

Is there any chance that your brother and you could move to a two-family house, or perhaps re-model your current house so that you could have your own small self-contained apartment within it?

If this is possible, it would solve two problems:

1) Enable both you and him to have more privacy, so that he could have company without disturbing you.

2) Enable you and him to continue living in the same building after he finds a partner.


We live in a house with enough space for me and my brother. The problem for me is not having any ability to get to know this person before they are staying here. Once I allow them to stay over for a week. My brother will ask to have them move in somewhere in the future. I can't live with someone that I do not know at all. My level of social anxiety, especially in my current state, would never be able to deal with the stress of it.

Thanks for the reply. :)


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03 Sep 2022, 6:45 pm

RoadRatt wrote:
Thanks everyone. I wasn't doing well when I started this thread.

I am still having short term memory problems. But I can copy and paste again. Well, most of the time. It is odd to lose such a seemingly simple ability.

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Thanks. The only thing that kept me going. Was the fact that I kept slowly recovering. Just a little bit, every month, for the last two years now. Up until I regressed last month, of course.

If I hadn't kept feeling myself recovering. I wouldn't be able to post this now, because I wouldn't have the skills to do so as well as I can today.

I actually wouldn't be here. In the condition I was in, in late 2020. I wasn't far from being hospitalized if I hadn't posted on Wrong Planet and found out that I was suffering from burnout. Afterwards I started to become calmer, just knowing what I was going through had a name. Having this site to ask questions on, may have saved my life.

Right now, I can deal with the state my head is in. Even a few days ago, the feelings were unmanageable. In that state is where the hopelessness lies. I sill believe I will recover with enough time. And I will hold that belief until I regress again. If I ever regress again, without proper mental stress. That is when I will start worrying.


It can be frightening to lose abilities and not know why, I'm glad Wrong Planet was here for you :heart:

I have found that eliminating stress is one of the best treatments for burnout, but also impracticable if you still want a life.


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