Worried that I'm becoming a hypochondriac

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The thing is though I'm don't actually worry that right now at this moment that I've got a major health problem. For me its more to do with wanting there to be certainty that I ''WON'T'' have these problems far in the future.

I remember once trying to find out what these lumps were under ears and on my neck and thinking they were and became anxious that they were cancerous and went to some clinics and had an ultrasound and found out they were just calcium deposits and told to leave them as they may shrink over time and they did. I recently tried to find out about the risks of a heart attack and google highlighted from some health website that men aged 45 and older and women aged 55 and older are more likely to have a heart attack than younger men or women and found out also that stress and anxiety along with other things such as obesity, smoking etc is a risk factor and then had me worried that I make myself unnecessarily anxious than I need to be and obviously didn't help especially when people were scared of a nasty virus going around and has now made me worry that I'll end up having a heart attack in the future brought on by years of anxiety. The thing is don't smoke and I'm not obese and still feel like I'm thin as I always been and can still feel my ribs even though I did for a while I did used to do regular press-ups and weight-lifting at home and not in a gym.

I don't know why I keep reminding myself of when my dad had his mini-stroke, when, when my nan has had several bypass operations and of someone who had a heart attack at 33 and ended up being put into a coma. I can't seem to get these thoughts as though I'm worried it ''WILL'' happen to me because I've got some people in my family with these problems. I seem to think that if the human body didn't have these problems then there would be no need for me to worry.

On her side of my family, my mum who is 59 has told me she has never had a mini-stroke, or a heart attack and triple bypass operations and also told a while ago that even if there are these things in the family history doesn't necessarily mean I have 100% of another parent's genetics but still despite this reassurance, the counter-acting inner demons still come and eat at my brain as if to say ''No! this can't be true. How do they know that? Maybe they're wrong.''

I seem to think that even when I want to talk about something that is worrying me and get off my chest so that I don't have interfering all the time. The counter-acting thoughts and self-criticism just keeps coming back. People have even told me ''Well, what is it that you want ?'' as if their advice and reassurance isn't helping me. I don't know whether sometimes I'm just simply a reassurance-seeker and that I just ''want'' to find something to worry about and then talk about it and then the cycle repeats itself over and over again.

I know how you feel. I'm always checking the bumps behind and below my ears to see if they feel strange or if they hurt. But it's not really because I'm afraid it's cancer. When I younger I had a ton of problems with my ears and had to get surgery I don't know how many times. I once developed a chronic antibiotic resistant infection in my left ear and they had to cut the back my ear open to drain it and other lovely things.

And of course covid just made my fears become a reality. Suddenly touching anything with your bare hands meant certain doom. Elevator buttons, door handles, shopping carts. Although during the H1N1 pandemic they started giving out hand sanitizer and wipes for the carts, for some reason it wasn't nearly as insane.

The world really is coming to an end. Not the world itself, obviously, that will be surely around long after we're all deader than dodos, but disease is rampant, politicians are filthy liars, we're on the brink of a world war, global warming is frying up the planet, and too many humans are blithering idiots with the unshakable belief that vaccines are deadly or contain brainwashing computer chips and masks are totally robbing them of their freedumb, yet they have no trouble wearing seat belts even though some people still die in car crashes when they do. If I were a religious person I'd be asking Mr. Sky Daddy why he's taking his sweet old time sending his favorite son down to Earth to save everyone. Not me, though, I'll be headed straight for the hot place just for asking a question like that.

I feel like worrying you're becoming a hypochondriac can become a self-fulfilling prophecy.

It's not surprising people are becoming hypochondriacs with all the health problems the world has had recently. You sound normal.

Worrying about being in worse health than you actually are (or might be in the future) is a major sign of depression...treat that, and the other "problems" often go away.

Sweet Pea hugs

Call your doctor and say you have health anxiety, it helped for me. It was a relief to admit and not hide it any longer. They can help you with that.

I don't want to be cliche but getting out and talking to others, joining groups, making time for hobbies will take the focus away from worry.

Also 'how to stop worrying and start living' by dale Carnegie is an uplifting and interesting story driven book that might help.

Sounds like a sure fire way to eventually stress yourself into actually being sick.

It'd be a wise move to learn how to counter these thoughts so you don't allow them to repeat over and over until you actually manifest an illness in yourself.

Medical fact that stress and high cortisol levels contribute to actual physical ailments.

Basically, Don't worry Be happy.. or worry yourself sick.

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