Oh dear. May that anxiety, that panic, clear up soon. Soon and very soon, to borrow a phrase.
The concept of messing about with various hobbies sounds quite appealing!
There is a recent post in the disability community on Tumblr which says that, hey, if what you can do for dinner is open a tin, open the tin, it is okay to do just that if you need to.
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"There are a thousand things that can happen when you go light a rocket engine, and only one of them is good."
Tom Mueller of SpaceX, in Air and Space, Jan. 2011