I been crying, depress, wanting to die, hoping to die in my sleep, I feel like I have no one, I feel like I’m not myself, nobody is home. I feel like I’m very very young again, I went backward in time when I was living with my mom & I really didn’t know everything I should know for my age, I felt like a teenager when I was in my 20s. When I have anxiety, it can be sooo worse & scary cuz I have trouble breathing. I’m sooo exhausted physically & mentally. Mornings are very hard cuz I don’t want to get out of bed, cuz everything is toooo much, I have pain in my bones in my lower legs, parts of my feet feels very numb, I have Psoriatic Arthritis, I have pains in my knees, my arms, my fingers, my left hand have pain, my right hand can go numb. I have no reason to get out of bed, I have nothing to live for.