I do remind myself sometimes that how do I know how many of the hundreds of people who went to my school and college etc are now parents themselves and are married or are like me, still single. When I go on social media, I only see a few people out of the hundreds I knew or recognised from school who are married now and have kids. But I seem to think its not knowing about it that frustrates me because I don't see or know all of those people, and if I did, would it have made me feel better knowing about the fact I'm not the only one because I knew or recognised everyone who went to my school who are still single like me ? I don't know whether its because I'm failing to accept that people grow up, become independent, some get married and start becoming parents themselves and until I accept it, this will just keep sometimes gnawing at my brain.
I seem to strangely feel that people born below me have all the time in the world to think about having kids and settling down because they know they are in their 20s and have no need to start now whereas it feels like for me I have less time and ought to be thinking about it sooner rather than later. That's why I have these thoughts running in my head sometimes because I see some people on here who are now parents or are married and feeling like seeing all of that makes me feel like life is passing me by. I know full-well that trying to be like other people and trying to do the things that other people are doing now such as marriage and having kids because I ''should'' do or am ''expected'' to will not bring me complete happiness, contentment and life satisfaction.
28 Nov 2023, 2:29 pm
