It is a BIG responsibility to be an adult, I’m not responsible enough, I’m VERY VERY IMMATURE for my age, I feel like a child in an adult body, sometimes when I’m relaxed & happy, I can feel like an adult but still a immature adult. I don’t know how to do things on my own, I’m not strong enough, more people are stronger than I am. I’m so tired of getting scared & crying. I wish I have someone helping me. I’m talking to my ex-boyfriend almost everyday, he makes me very happy, but I don’t want to depend on him for happiness. My life is soooo messed up.