Aspergers theory, it's a big question mark for me
All my life I acted/ felt as an aspie text book except the sensitivity to light sound etc. My whole life until went through a trauma that triggered a previous trauma and I started to have this ability to self reflect. Yes analytical and rational mind helped me understand why I am so "aspie" even before learning about aspergers. After about 4 years of that trauma I saw anmazing progress in socialising, in showing empathy something that I was numb to it somehow, i wouldnt seek freindship relationships, i had no idea about my surroundings, I was misunderstood, I didn't understand people why they do what they do and their needs, so unaware so isolated and not even feeling unhappy for it . It's so weird when I read anbout aspie and I can say I was like that but not anymore. Of course I still have some traits but not an aspie at all. So yeah, it feels like I was sitting on a large closed jar all my life and one day I opened it and discovered myself. I got in touch with my emotions, so weird it made me cry for long with pain in my chest never felt before, it was like I have a soul that I didn't know about. I talked so much to myself and found myself writing down like talking to myself. Has anyone gone through this? What are your thoughts
You woke up. Good for you.
Yeh went through it all. Lots of trauma. Lots of suffering. The whole thing. Then I just woke up, its like I'd been asleep my whole life, then suddenly I was'nt. Hell of thing.
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Aspie Quiz: 177 of 200
100% probability of being atypical (autistic/neurodiverse)
I don't have Autism, I was born this way. I'm simply called an Autistic.
learning about my autism diagnosis at age 68 suddenly gave me a different perspective and everything in the past finally began to make sense. A lot to sort, but knowing I am autistic helped me figure out "everything else" and it was the answer to almost every painful "why" of my past, both childhood and right up until diagnosis. What a relief!
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Welcome to wrong planet.
The important thing is that the traumas have finally gone away enough to allow you to find out who you are. At this point the important thing is to enjoy what you now can feel and to continue to learn more about yourself. Whether you meet the criteria for Aspergers should be of secondary concern.
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DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman
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