Feel bad that I didn't know much about fitness until later
I seem to feel now I don't have as much self conscious thoughts about my body than maybe I used to. During some of my 20s, I used to think my arms were skinny and didn't always like going out on a summer's day in just a t shirt and I would wear shirt over the t shirt and roll the sleeves up and made it look like the muscle on my arms was a bit bigger. I actually still do it now although during the summers I've gone to work with my blue polo t shirt that we wear at work but no one has criticised me for being too skinny or that I could do with going to gym to bulk up some muscle.
It was only I think during my late 20s/early 30s that I started only on occasions use my mum's partners barbells he used to use as well as doing some press ups mainly because before the pandemic really started, people were advised that if they exercise and eat well, their chances of dying from COVID would be less, although there were still healthy people out there who sadly still caught COVID and died.
I do look in the mirror and notice that maybe my arm muscles seem to have bulked somewhat and it does feel hard when I flex them. Although I use the barbells on occasions at home, I still though don't really feel much interested in going to a gym. I seem to think there are a lot more people even younger than me exercising and going to gyms more than maybe 10 years ago and it makes me feel like "bad" for not knowing about how to build up muscles earlier than I did later because I seem to think 20 year olds do it because they've got more energy and can build up muscle quicker than later.
I also regret not knowing sooner and not going to the gym a decade earlier, either.
My body doesn't feel very efficient for numerous individual reasons.
And I'm not even 30 yet.
Not because of figures and overall health benefits, but because it could've been great for my interoceptive sensory systems (which is nigh impossible to turn off and ignore in my case except with a full body work out) and as a means to regulate circadian rhythm a little (mine is overall almost never stable, disallowing the basis of what makes any routines lasts).
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In my 30s, I think when I saw my mum's partner's barbells being un-used, I started using them on occasions probably in my late 20s. I started using them a bit more at 30 before the pandemic really kicked off because there was advice going round to be try and exercise more and other things so that if you were infected your chances of dying seriously from Covid would be less.
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