Possible loss of a friend

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I have an online friend that I have known for 15 years now. I think of them like family. They have been helping me cope while I have been recovering from PTSD/DPDR and vitamin deficiencies over the last 5 years. They haven't been doing well mentally or physically. They have an eating disorder. They are most likely autistic like I am. I have watched them losing their abilities and becoming non-speaking at times over the last year.

Two weeks ago, they went into a psych ward, for the 4th time this year. 12 days is the longest they have ever spent at a psych ward.

I know 2 days isn't much overdo. But my online friend is my best friend. Literally the only person that I chat with every day.

As an autistic, without my friend. I can't function well now. I have been dissociating.

I spent the day at the E.R. yesterday where they tried to put in a I.V. and every time they tried, it wouldn't stay in.

It turns out I have been dehydrated. Due to worry I haven't been keeping up with drinking enough water every day. I will now though.

I know there isn't much anyone can do. I am mostly posting to get this off my chest, since I have nobody to tell much to right now.

If I lose my online friend. I have no idea how I will cope. I can only hope they had to stay in the hospital longer this time.

Worry, worry, worry

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope your friend is okay and I'm sure the hospital staff are doing everything they can to help. Remember that your friend would want you to take care of yourself: so try to drink, eat, and sleep. I hope everything goes well!

Please keep posting. We care about you.

I'm really sorry about what you're going through. I know it's important to have people in your life that you can rely on for emotional support and it's very difficult to have to be out of touch. Hang in there as best as you can and take care of yourself.

Thanks everyone.

My friend has still yet to return. I am hardly functioning. My online friend was the only person that I chat with every day. There loss has left me dissociating because my head doesn't want to believe they are gone, and may not come back this time.

The last 5+ years has left me unable to communicate as well as I was able to before. So I can't even make new friends. I made two online friends in 23 years. The other one only chimes in on the weekends now due to family.

I feel I will now be extremely lonely for the rest of my days.

I hope my friend is in the hospital for their health. Because I doubt they are still in for their mental health.

I have been dissociating and derealizing today. It is my friends birthday, and they still aren't home yet.

My other online friend suggested that I check the hospitals in their area. But I am not sure I have the abilities to even accomplish that task in my current condition.

I miss my friend so much it hurts. Autistic love for friends is so intense.

Falling apart. I hope my friend contacts me soon. Ugh.

I'm so sorry. Hang in there. Sending all my best thoughts to you.

Thanks. I wish someone could help. But not even my counselor will be able to help me when I see them in 2 weeks.

I haven't fully recovered from my PTSD/DPDR yet. I am dissociating badly and can't function well. My brother has to drive me to the store tomorrow because I can't risk trying to drive in this condition.

My friend was my support, and I was theirs. Without them, I have nobody to chat with. I am isolated like never before in my life. With little, to no, abilities to make new friends.

Sorry. I will probably leave the thread here. I know everyone has good intentions. But without being able to really talk with someone. This probably won't help me much.

Thanks everyone.

I'm sorry you're dealing with all of that. It's really hard struggling with PTSD and DPDR, especially when you don't have support. I wish there was something we could do to help.

Thank you.

My friend came home today. They held them 22 days in the psych ward this time. Longest before this time was 12 days.

I am still dissociating, but that will go away now that I have my friend back.

Best friends mean everything when you have so few friends.

That’s great news. I’m glad they’re home!

Thanks. I am worn out from all the worrying. But am recovering again now that my friend is back.

Glad to have a site like Wrong Planet for support.

Sweet Pea hugs