Joined: 26 Aug 2014 Age: 60 Gender: Male Posts: 62,231 Location: Oregon
07 Nov 2024, 9:29 pm
I feel better than I have in years. Eating better than I ever have. I have busted my butt learning how to recover from the PTSD/DPDR. And now with the election Tuesday. It all comes unraveled.
My anxiety is through the roof at the prospect of spending the next 4 years dissociating because my country is being assaulted by a raving lunatic. The illogic of turning our country over to a mad man with a god complex, after warning us of how dangerous this useless waste of space is to our democracy, is beyond comprehension.
I can no longer ever trust a human being. They lie to us so often, I am completely done with them. I will chat with them , but will never trust one ever again, in my lifetime.
I know nobody can help. But if you feel like replying, go ahead.
Remember, this is the haven. If you come after me for my choice on this matter in this thread. I won't hesitate to bring in the mod staff. I am in no mood to debate any of this with anyone who doesn't like what I have to say... in this safe space.
_________________ No power in the 'verse can stop me. - River Tam (Firefly)
{{{hugs}}} I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling, especially when things were going so well.
I’m also having a hard time with this situation. The idea of such a vile excuse for a human being running the country (again) is certainly triggering to me, especially taking into account some of the things he’s guilty of. In a saner world, he’d be in jail, not the White House. I mostly wanted to say that you aren’t alone.
I’m probably going to distance myself from the news in the coming months, not that that’s right for everyone.
_________________ “Les grandes personnes ne comprennent jamais rien toutes seules, et c'est fatigant, pour les enfants, de toujours et toujours leur donner des explications.” — Le Petit Prince
Joined: 26 Aug 2014 Age: 60 Gender: Male Posts: 62,231 Location: Oregon
07 Nov 2024, 11:12 pm
Thank you girl!
Yes, I stopped looking at the news yesterday. I have no interest in hearing any news about it anymore. I just can't listen to 4 years of this mad man ranting at the media, again.
I am working on staying calm and low stress. But I won't be able to do this for 4 years. In just 2 days I am feeling myself more stressed over the thought of this happening.
I guess it is a good thing I have some websites to vent on.
I hope you feel better yourself.
_________________ No power in the 'verse can stop me. - River Tam (Firefly)
I am dealing with it by trying to tune it out and not think about it as much as I can. And also by remembering that we will muddle on no matter what bad things come our way. Best of luck to you and sending best wishes.
Joined: 26 Aug 2014 Age: 60 Gender: Male Posts: 62,231 Location: Oregon
14 Nov 2024, 10:46 am
Thanks.
I had a few decent days. I talked with my counselor Tuesday. Now I don't believe I will survive the next 4 years. A complete waste of time as they use their psychobabble. Psychology doesn't work on me. Nor do medications, I can't deal with their side effects.
I have turned off the news, won't watch it for the next 4 years. But this only helps to isolate me even further, in a world I am already extremely isolated from these days.
I can do all the breathing exercises I want to do. But every day is different. I can only keep control for so long, then it goes away and all I see is the reality of the situation.
I will keep working on staying as low stress as I can. But when the chaos in America begins, my head will dissociate and I will not want to survive it, yet again.
_________________ No power in the 'verse can stop me. - River Tam (Firefly)