I seem to strangely find myself sometimes envying other people younger than me maybe five or maybe ten years because they probably don't have the same thoughts I have that they don't have to start thinking about things like marriage and children whereas other people have to. I seem to think these thoughts started in my late 20s but I still didn't feel any urgency to think about certain things but it feels as though five or more years later it's got "bigger" and it's makes me find it very hard to enjoy being a singleton in my 30s because I'm seeing some of my peers the same age, getting married or having children and it conjures this self imposed pressure to "knuckle down" when I still don't feel "ready" when it seems I should be by now and not currently in a relationship either. Seeing other people have kids much earlier sometimes leaves me with the impression that I ought to be doing these things earlier but at 25 or 26 I again wasn't remotely thinking of children or was in a relationship but my sister was 26 when I was 30 when she had her son but I don't think she wanted children really but she got pregnant and decided to have the baby anyway.
19 Dec 2024, 3:14 pm
