I seem to find myself thinking that wanting to meet someone new seems less exciting and stuff because I'm being too overly aware of my own age and having this self imposed pressure to hurry and get paired up because the partner might want to start a family despite having no idea what other people want in life and I can't stop assuming things when I shouldn't. It has sometimes made me feel like I wasted time not being in a relationship between 20 and 29, because there seemed more people available to go out with and date and I wouldn't have had these self imposed pressures and now feels like there is less of them between ages 30 and 35. I don't really feel like wanting to rush things and I seem to also feel alone among my peers because I still would explore and go to new places and stuff rather than setting down.
22 May 2025, 2:29 pm
