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Brian0787
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30 Jun 2025, 1:29 am

I recently ended up spending a thousand dollars on a adult camsite. I feel disgusted with myself and see how much this addiction has truly taken from me. It led me to lose a wonderful job. It took thousands of dollars for me over the course of the past five years. If it wasn't for an act of God I would have kept on spending. When I was using the camsite recently I was using my debit card and by what I believe was an act of God it began to decline my charges. I had money to continue but luckily somehow it wouldn't let me.

I inwardly knew exactly what that happened when the charges were declined. A part of me was frustrated but the other part was very thankful. I realized tonight as I was laying in my bed that I am done with this addiction for good. It is a destroyer and eventually if you go far enough it will take everything. I also am beginning to see that addiction has an element of choice. I could have walked away. I could have said I'm not doing this but I didn't. I said in my mind "I don't care. I'm going to do it anyway". I think I have finally woken up and pray I can keep this mindset. I have been thinking about joining a support group. I've thought about a support group before but never saw it through. I want to do it now. I feel shame about what happened but also a peace that God was there and is waiting for me to make the choice that I don't want to do this anymore.



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30 Jun 2025, 2:43 am

Maestro Brian,

Addiction is one of the toughest issues to have to deal with and us ASD peers are statistically more likely to get caught by it's appeal. My best advice is find help! and find your Anchor! (cfr my post viewtopic.php?t=427918)


Best of luck maestro, every day counts.
Kada



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30 Jun 2025, 3:53 pm

kadanuumuu wrote:
Maestro Brian,

Addiction is one of the toughest issues to have to deal with and us ASD peers are statistically more likely to get caught by it's appeal. My best advice is find help! and find your Anchor! (cfr my post viewtopic.php?t=427918)


Best of luck maestro, every day counts.
Kada


That's great advice and thank you so much Kadanuumuu!